this post is specially for you .
happy 16th birthday ! i hope you will enjoy your bday .
make your birthday be a memorable one okay {:
i just want to let you know that you are a great exbf of mine .
indeed i enjoy the times im with you . 270707 will always be inside my heart & your name ! {:

this birthday song is for you :
happy birthday to you .
happy birthday to you .
happy birthday to dtwc.
happy birthday to you .

must take care of yourself when you are in boystown .
drink more water okay ?
iloveyou boy .
imissyou boy .
just want to say that you are my only forever .
hope you will like the present i give you . {:
takecare .
i'll be waiting for you .
i love you forever <3s

[u] monday [/u]
went to school , f&n got cooking ! haha! but i don like the food .
so never eat and just throw it away le .
after school meet jessica go out . but i go naffa first . i did badly .
the first time i did so bad . nevermind .
go bugis. look for my tongue shirt ! girls version .
pink colour. nice okay ! hehe .
then want to buy the sweet . but rush to orchard by cab . then never buy !
): sighh! i feel so sad lah . !
after that go watch a show by jackychan . forget le . opps !
haha! nice & funny !
after that take mrt home with her ! she come by house download themes .

[u] tuesday [/u]
went to school as normal . im rushing to complete the heart le .
after school , go panjang with nat !
then see got the sweet anot . DONHAVE!}:
then she say her hse have , so i went her hse . but she accompany me go back changed first .
then go her hse .
the sweet i don even know izzit honey anot lah . haha
exam is on friday . yet im doing so much stupid things for you . OMG .
sighh . tell me you will love me all over again .
i hope everything will start again .
i just yearn for you to return to me forever .
go limbang . buy another honey for replacement .
it's not perfect le . can you imagine me folding 520 hearts for you ?
putting it in a box with a letter inside ? sighh. im doing too much le .
yet you don appreciate it ? maybe ?
you just want her ? you just want to receive something for her ?
why am i still so stupid?
what is the problem with me ?! sighh }:
[u] today [/u]
went to school . wake up late.
then quickly bring the present i want to give you to school.
msg natalie ask her got bring the shirt anot . she bluff me !
thanks girl . you remember !
go home . during mother tongue , xiaoxuan ask him out of the class.
and i pass it to him . wishing him happy birthday . and he replied thankyou .
with a special voice. ! ahhh! my heart is pumping fast .
i miss hearing your voice talking to me so gently!
ILOVEYOU !
after that not really got talk le.
but i know i keep glancing at you .
i think i abit got problem le . i hope im still normal ?
anw. there is a spammer in me & vulgar blog!
name:zhiling ?
haha! get a life lah! you come spam ? seeking our attention ? please ley .
don be a dog lahh. we wouldn't care too {:
go look into the mirror lah ? !
fuck us siols ?! school uh ? please . you think ppl want to fuck you uh ?!
please! stop all your nonsense lah . want , add us at msn and talk it out lah !


IM STILL WAITING .
I WILL BE FIRM IN MY DECISION TO WAIT.

i finally know what i want.
i finally decided whether to wait anot.
and my answer is yes. cause i know and i can comfirm is that i need you in my life.
but i'll wait happily for you .
no one can replace you in my heart .
i know people will say that im very stupid .
go find for the guy that loves me.
but my heart cares for you . no matter what guy , all i think is you.
after days and months , all i need and love is you .
you say you will love me forever . but you leave me alone.
boy . tell me you will come back to my side . will you ?
i know im not the one you love anymore.
waiting for you is like i will get nothing in the end .
but i really want to love you with what i have .
whenever you need me , im there.
i just miss the time im with you .
but i just want to say . i'll wait .
this is my final decision . i wonte change le .
you don love me , but i can love you .
i know i will be hurt again .
and im prepare to be hurt again .
cause all i want is you .

babyiloveyou{: [dtwc]

monday
today went to school as normal luh .
after school , mrs tan ask me to stay for detention and i never stay . cause of my shirt out. so lame !
then mrs tan confiscated me and natalie secretbook! -.-
she read everything. and she knows what is dtwc and stuffs le -.-
sighh ): forget it . mood wasn't good .
go out with cousin and i did enjoyed myself always i hang out with them .
ilovemonday luh! but whenever got choir , i don know how luh .
brought the things i want to give you le . sighhh . don know will you find it nice anot ? :/
hope you will luh ? very sincere deh . {:
watch hottie nottie show le {:
is hillarious lah! haha!
after watching go home le {:
tuesday
went to school . is raining . but got latecoming!-.-
what rule is that siah . wth !
school sucks lahh .
never go late coming. hide in the toilet . i don wan detention !
damn scary luh . lucky nothing happen to me .
but is a very unlucky day for me .
later on , on f&n , mrstan say i never go her detention ytd . and wanna double it until 4 hrs!
i jitao no mood after that . not i never go okay . it is because it doesn't make sense to me !
i run back to my seating place . as i saw mr ong come up to the hall le.
then shirt untuck .
she catch . give me detention! nbm! it is ridiculous.
don care . pink colour rubber band also serve 1 hr detention . -.-
go die man . i don care anyway.
didn't talk for 1 hr in f&n
don feel like talking. i think ppl find me weird .
first time so long never talk.
cause im angry . i don wan waste my saliva on talking to her!
but after that after lesson , natalie and me stay back to ask her for our book .
and she talk alot to me .
and i don have detention le . she give me chance .haha!
then go sheng siong with natalie {:
thanks for accompany .
then go home baked cookies
i think is nice .
but like got abit not that crispy. don know why too.
then never bring to school.
never bake alot .so i put at home and eat {:
today
went to school as normal . natalie baked cookies!
haha! nice okay {:
today cca day ! already sian le luh
got choir . didn't attend the past fewdays .
choir intructor is angry at me . still want me promise her that i wonte lied to her again .
haha! try to learn the notes. if you think i never try then is okay.
i know myself well .
was super tired luh ! i want sleep !
went home , bathe and go yewtee brought snacks . tmr period is super cute lah .
2 eng , 2 math , 2 physic .
how to survive ?!
mrlim ley?! will die ! so buy snack.
very evil . but i think i will sleep if i don it .
then now updating le luh .

i just want to say . sometime i don wan to know things related to you.
but things just happen that i know everything . -.-
i don want to know and get hurt le . im hurt enough . get it ?
im not a super strong girl . that can act nothing happen .
i can't . im just a normal girl . that im weak .
i admit . im weak . i cannot overcome . i cannot forget you .
what i can do ? this is me . i want to be who i am .
i don wan to act im very happy .
it is so hard . sighh ):
i sacrifice alot . but what i get is you leaving me .
i do so much for you . yet you don cares . tell me ?
why your heart couldn't be a soft hearted heart ?
sighh . nevermind . i said le . let things go naturally .

HURT SO BAD

哭了才发现自己真的受伤了
你曾对我说你永远是我的
为了爱情我把自己的幸福都忘了
你快乐我就快乐
也许是我们彼此都太年轻了
总是特别容易沉溺在爱情里
每当我再次看到身边美丽的花火
你也离开我我还是想对你说
bady i love you so much
你走了我的心在淌血
bady you hurt me so bad
想要你回到我的世界
bady i love you so much
你给我的诺言已经瓦解
bady you hurt me so bad
只要我们都爱着无论多苦都值得
说好的你怎么忘记了
也许是我们彼此都太年轻了
总是特别容易沉溺在爱情里
每当我再次看到身边美丽的花火
你也离开我我还是想对你说
bady i love you so much
你走了我的心在淌血
bady you hurt me so bad
想要你回到我的世界
bady i love you so much
你给我的诺言已经瓦解
bady you hurt me so bad
只要我们都爱着无论多苦都值得
说好的你怎么忘记了

你们要快乐

你哭着拿下银手链还我的时候
最近你躲我有了理由
别说我的爱让你惭愧不配拥有
珍惜不就是温柔
但你说抱歉爱上了我的好朋友
原来心酸比心痛难受
茫然的走到了门口
倔强还是念旧
我听见我回头说
你们要快乐要天长地久
你们没有错爱是自由
走出这扇门后至少我还有辽阔
你们要快乐要紧紧牵手
你们不幸福我会难过
成全最爱的人不是为了看着她
寂寞
过去曾让你笑得很甜
不代表有权利要你纠结
虽然遗憾爱情也有它的季节
风不能吹就作最潇洒的落叶

currently fall in love with this song !{:
find it so meaningfull {:
it's a old song. but is nice luh .
today whole day at home {:
doing mas selamat project. And finding the songs we fall in love in the past.
haha! so sian luh . nothing to do . {:
actually going amanda house deh .
but sean they all say tmr then go .
i wonte be joining bah {:
haha! around 12 plus , meet up with natalie at yewtee.
she accompany me to have my lunch+breakfast.
i think . only drink milk and abit ofcookies for breakfast . {:
so can say meet her for lunch bah .
hah! vulgar say my post emo ?!
haha ！ 还好luh !
show you our sms in the afternoon {:
jiahui :celia 去死啦！
celia : 你叫我去死？我死了你一定会想我的！
jiahui : 对hor! 不要死！我会哭的！

haha! dont you think very funny ? {:
haha! but i think i only can be happy awhile lo.
sighh ):
i hope i can complete in on your bday {:
there is a few hundreds more to go }:
jiayou ^^
short post for today ! {:

JUST WANNA UPLOAD SOME PHOTOS {:

PERSONAL MESSAGE : NELSONTAY GO HELL LAHH .
CHEATER . BECAREFUL OF THIS PERSON!


today went to school as normal . so sian luh .
don really have mood to live life and stuffs .
nearly late . but mswendy say we late . LOL.
HACK CARE . and then just walk up.
haha! then eugene got come school today luh .
lucky no one steal my precious lolipop luh .
but i didn't have a chance to give you 1 lolipop }:
sighh }:
then today is the shortest day . which i don like . cannot really have much time to see my precious ):
imisshim. imisshim . ):
but do you know that ?
you just mean everything to me.

after school went to QINGAIDEH HOUSE. BAKED COOKIES! {:
haha! enjoyed myself . and time past . which life is moving on .
if commiting a crime is not a offence , i would kill you .
and i'll kill myself after that . just to be with you forever.
how stupid of me loving you . and wouldn't let you go .
tell me what you want ?
what you expect me to do ?
iloveyou izzit something wrong ?
i fall for you each time , is also a wrong ?
why ? if time would to stop , i think and i promised no matter what , i will hold on to you .
never let you go. even its takes a life time , for me to wait , i will .
im realy stupid . which i don know what am i doing ? i just couldn't stopthinking of you .
i just know that i need you .
without you , i only want to die . nothing else . sighh!
boy . tell me you will be back . will you ?
im waiting . im waiting . i beg you . i want to be a happy girl .
heal my heart boy . you break my heart into pieces .
sighh! i really do love you alot ):

{ donovan, im still waiting for you

today . went to school and meet up with natalie {:
nearly late luh =.=
then im happy cause i bring lots of lolipop! {:
haha! nice okay {:
but went to school , mrstan called me , vulgar , eugeneYEO they all come out . pleaseeee! i didn't bully you in action okay . mind your words hor ! zzzyah . i hate you . think everything also me uh !kanna suspension !? wth . yah .
our fault okay .nevermind . then in the duration of mrstan talking to me , EUGENE,DONOVAN,YONGXIANG,JEROME,FAIZ!LOLIPOP STEALER! >
wah . my heart pain ! my mother buy for me de hor ! {:
haha! then i was there nagging non-stop. those who eat my lolipop will have stomach ache .
and i curse them uh! haha! who ask them take my lolipop.jeromeERZI . the most evil one man!this time round , eugene the best luh . never take ! never steal!haha! enjoy sitting with him luh .
alway entertain me .social studies , i laugh 1 hour .
break through luh . haha! i hope every single day , im so happy luh . {:
laughing lah . when eugene say ppl parents name is link to the person name! =.=haha! then during math lesson , me and vulgar like crazy lah . i doing exercise with her , yongxiang tell donovan we dancing! haha!cute luh! then took alot photo with vulgar today .
then i go edict then upload into our friendsterand my blog! {: haha! iloveher kay . then got remedial . was sitting with vulgar . then listen song luh . emokids! haha! ^^
then went to bus-stop with vulgar , ronny and sherilyn .
then saw azrema and nisa. they look alike. 2 cute ones! haha!
then we saw bus don let the person alight . was thinking like that we ton at bus-stop better ! haha!lovethem {:then went home le . tomorrow bring lolipop again .
i hope no one steal it . want my lolipop , ask me! i'll give okay {: depends on who ? :/

a few days never post le luh .
hmm. either is never use cousin update or never use com bah {:
haha! now alone ar home. thats why i choose to post {:
haha!
monday-
go out with simin only .
jessica & szehwee go thailand.
miss them hell lots {: !
but they are back on friday or tmr ?!
next monday i'll see them . !
went bugis simin . brought a school bag {:
black deh .
i fall in love with black le luh.
doesn't know why .
mrstan never come school. no F&N .
IM HAPPY {:
tuesday-
mrstan never come school again. i memorise so hard for the test .
but she never come . }:
her son is sick ? take care! LOL.
then went home le {:
im guai luh . dad cooked {:
then 4.30 take a nap and i realise i sleep until 8.30 pm!><
then wake up revise my math . {:
till 2am . and i only started to feel abit sleepy.
so go sleep le {:
im glad im able to wake up the next morning {:
thankGod {:
today went to school as normal . CCA DAY!
sian lahh .stupid rule luh . wth .
then actually want take form to go home . msLiM don allow.
she talk to me until i cry . -.-
is quite lame . but i don know why too}:
then i think after that i cry is not because of her le bah.
she make me so emotional. started to think alot alot !
even i went home , walking , i think of you dtwc.
its has been months , im still thinking about you .
tell me ! how ?! sighh.
thats show since 270707 , iloveyou with all my heart.
even now i cannot let you go .
seeing you loving another girl is just so hurting .
but i know is your happiness . so to see you happy is what i want .
BOY. ALL I WANT TO SEE IS YOU BEING HAPPY.
ALTHOUGH YOU ARE NOT MINE , BUT I STILL LOVE YOU ALOT . ?I KNOW IM SO FOOLISH . NEVER LETTING YOU GO BUT HOLDING YOU TIGHTLY.
SIGH. IM TIRED. REALLY TIRED. TELL ME ? WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO.
HOW AM I GOING TO FORGET YOU ?
I KNOW I CAN'T . SERIOUSLY . ALL I NEED IS YOU .THATS ALL .
I DON WAN ANYTHING. I JUST NEED YOU .

12.04.08 {:
went out and meet joycetan at jurong last cabin {:
then until 2.30 got event then muscles ache still need run about }:
then after that me , gina , vanessa and jingting go meridian eat {:
then we went cine walkwalk {:
then go takashimaya .
after awhile gina leave first.
then left me,vanessa and jingting . {:
then saw cousin {:
then we go fareast [:
saw korhkorh too{:
got fate {:
then went home with cousin, vanessa and jingting {:
went home after that . as simin come my house stay {:
today,tomorrow and forever i'll be missing you {:

13.04.08 {:
went to work in the morning . my whole leg ache luh .
sigh }:
walk also pain .
then went home after work . relax relax at home. plus more exam is coming. and i have to buck up in studies }:
now im edicting photo .
and going to revise le {:
shall upload the photo i've edicted {:







LASTLY,YOU'RE STILL VERYVERY IMPORTANT TO ME{:

today no lesson due to sportday {:
run alot alot luh .
4x400 ,4x100,8x50!
and nearly got choir deh luh .
driving me crazy le ><
didn't really win . but at least we do our best !
goodjob girls!
the guys is fast luh .
guys get FIRST for the 4x400! {:
chhay run super fast . but slow down to 4th position .
then ma'mum turn! wow! he run damn super duper FAST!
he chiong to first luh . then compete with zul! but we win!
good job guys! {;
then went home le .
so tired. i nearly fainted .
i think i lack of energy , water , food ! }:
suffer luh . but 3/4 is the best {:
ILOVEYOU PEOPLES! ^^
walked home . walked pass primary school.
miss the school alot . }:
the time there , doesn't need to think! {:
nice life .now ?!
today i saw you . just wish that you would smile back to me.
but you didn't.
im like nobody to you .
enjoying your life. yet im sufering .
do you know the hurt i have ?
my heart contains all memories and your BIG name in it .
nothing else. all was about you .
BOY . IM CRAZY ABOUT YOU ONCE AGAIN =/

today went to school pernormal {:
reach-ed school then go back class .
chinese tcher never come . but i was guai doing letter . {;
xiaoyu also say i become hard working le luh {;
weetweet !
then mrjohnson lesson le luh . eugene seat with me the whole day today {:
haha! then chit-chatted with him today .
don think much korhkorh {:
then today he come for attendance only luh .
then never saw him le . siann .
misshim }:
then today mrshie lesson . got do. but don understand . exams is coming le luh .
yet im like still playing and not focus in class . wth . =.=
then during english period . alot alot things happen .
strawberry and co . come our class and slack .
as mslim is absent for a week {:
yippi :p
then some of them splash water on ''them''
and i think she comfirm think i'm the mastermind de luh .
keep give me the look .
wtf lahh. please . make things right and use your eye and see!
yah . i hate you. hate till how i wish you will disappeared in my sight.
but you can't right ? i regret coming to this school .
not i donte like the people there. is just that i don want to see you .
sorry for being straight forward .
you said you lost the guy you love ?
as if i didn't ?
and what is the bygone is the bygone.
but i can't let it go .
i just want you to disappeared from my life.
cause i think i donte need you in my life.
i really cannot take it le luh .
with your voice ? with your this look ?
and please not i want to give comment . why people use this things , you must use ?
i donte understand why luh .
if you think is me , go complain all you want .
i donte give a damn .
go say i bully you . go say i scold you . might as well say i slap you ?!
doesn't want to say le. im super angry . nbm .
after school went to causeway with vulgar and qingaideh . {:
very long never go out with them le {:
enjoyed ! go eat with them . then after that go print photos .
then vulgar went off first. don worry ! i got miss you kay {:
then left me and qingaideh .
talked alot about the past . and indeed is all happiest memories between us {:
then we went to library chit chatted . and we went home le {:
tomorrow is sport day {:
we may run slow . at least we participate ! LOL .
jiayou ppl who is running .! run with 3/4 spirit yeah ? {:
i have learn to treasure people around me .
people ILY !
{i just want to tell you that even if i wait , you will not be back ,
i will still wait. cause i say even it takes forever i'll wait .
understand boy ?
cause i realise you are just so important to me {: }

went to school pernormal today {:
reach-ed school , meet up with xiaoxuan {;
when to canteen while natalie want buy hotdog . :p
then saw special person {:
went to bball court to assemble {;
then went back to class {:
is chinese ! {: i learn sth today {:
then mrstan come in luh .
keep say changing of seating arrangment .
change , the one who allowed you to change and you will have to sent home .
thats lame ! then never change le luh .
cannnot seat with vulgar le }:
seat with aloysius. haha! i will make sure he will become talkative!
then today school end at 5.00pm
but choir extent to 6pm.
ohmy! thats boring . }:
nbm . school life is like that.
monday have practise . and i know for sure i wonte go.
is cousin day ley .
i wonte pangseh them deh .
i love going out with them alot alot {:
but will spend money .
ytd night, didn't sleep with a good mood. }:
sighh! in a sudden , many things flash through my mind.
which proves to me , i really need you in my life.
tried ways to let you go . but things just turn this way .
what you expect me to do ?
why things will all happened on me siah . ?
nbm . life s filled with ups and downs.
which i just have to face it .
doesn't want to escape from reality .
cause i know it doesn't cure.
boyy. indeed imissyou .
i just couldn't stop thinking of you for a minute.
tell me . if this continue on , how am i going to concentrate on my studies ? sighh!
doesn't want to say much le. dont wannt think much and turn emotional again .}:

ytd after school , chiong back home . prepared and rush down to dad workplace.
to meet up with aunt and cousin {:
yeah . went to pay a respect to grandmother,grandfather and 5th uncle .
aunt and stuffs is filled up with nonsense lah .
jessica & me keep laughing non-stop {:
after that take car back to jessica house. and went to queenway with cab {:
she go touch up angkong ! haha! nice luh .
hmm. then simin come and meet us there . and soon , weixuan reach too .
shared cab down to bugis and off for shopping .
brought 2 tops . and i only like 1 . another one i don like.
then around 10 szehwee come and join us for dinner{:
ate and home sweet home. {:
take train with them . weixuan go my hse take thing . and he accompanied too {:
wake up and went to school today {:
don know should i be happy or what .
realizing every single day i post , is such a emo post .
but what can i do ? my heart still thinks and cares for you .
like what QINGAIDEH say . if you are fated to be mine , you'll be mine.
but i'm afraid you are not mine.
how much i yearn for you to be back ? do you know that .
know sth today . that you have forgotten 't' and love 'c'
should i be happy? that at least you dn 't'? cause she is not good ?
but my heart still hurts alot .even i looks happy to know the news.
why news will eventually allow me to know ? i don wan to be hurt again .
understand ? boy . im sorry .
saying things that you don like ? sorry .
yah i know it's over between us le .
juse hope one day you will be back {:
lastly i love strawberrt & vulgar {:
140208 <33 vulgar&crazy (:
070408<33 strawberry&blueberry {{:

ENJOY THE PHOTOS{:
















THANKS CLEOMINE MOTHER & CELIA VULGAR FOR EDICTING FORH ME ^^
LOVEYOU ALL TONS! ^^

wake up at 7am like that and go to work . zzz
im so tired now. but i don wan to go for a nap .{:
ytd sleep around 12am luh . imiss yesterday alot . so memorable x33
friends add me at new hotmail for msn : withloves--dt@hotmail.com
thank{:
nothing to do thats why here blogging luh .
yawn. guess you go back boystown le {:
takecare {: withloves !
suddenly i fall in love with this song : 爱要怎末说出口
the lyric is nice lah {:
maybe change blogsong again {:
will have to please vulgar again .
she is so good to help me change things that is related to blog{:
btw , add me and celia friendster . we made a combine one {:
crazyvulgar@hotmail.com {: add us up at friendster {{:我真的很闷!
maybe join cousin and daniel for dinner later .
shold i take a nap ? i think i will {:
haha! tmr school le. will get to see my loves one and my special person {:
hope he got come to school {:
recently hongster is living round the world !
hongsters really never die .
LOL. im too bored le. opps.
someone i hate , birthday is coming le!
hopefully will be a very memorable one i guess . right cleomine mother ? {:
LOL! maybe update some photos later bah {: meaningful one kay {:

im back home {:
went out early in the morning {:
meet someone special {: wake up at 7.45 . and im super tired. ytd night go find wanling . as she works walls alone. go accompany her . and it is at yewtee {:
talk to her and she tells me quite some things. {: LOVEYOU ❤
message vulgar in the morning. and she seems sad. cheer up {:
and your ahma is fine le .{: donte worry kays {: iloveyou vulgar {:
after meeting someone special , went to meet up with amandaMUMMY , seanCAT , andrew & tianwen {:
have lots orf fun with them {:
go catch sweets with them . and indeed i have lots of fun {:
and we play till jackpot ! got 2 toys ! mummy & daughter took it {:
cause we are girls. ! opps !
haha! i ❤ them lots kays {:
after today i realise i cannot live without yoos.
i realise after so many weeks of saying giving up you and i can't .
im so sorry . even now , my heart still cares alot for you .
And no matter i know something about you , i will care alot alot .
and today . my heart feel so loved by you .
and my heart ache alot .
why would all this happen to me ?
why there isn't something called everlasting love in this young age ?
sigh }: boy . to be with you is my everything .
i don want anything . i just want you .
do you know that ? }:
donovan. i just want to tell you.
after so long , i still love you alot ❤ {:
我说过没有了你就是没有了快乐。
因为到现在我依然还很爱你。
donovantanweichang. your name is carved forever in my heart 181days with you is the happiest time in my lifetime {: