At first i really think that we can never be friends back again de .
At first don't intend to talk about the problem with you .
But someone advise me to , and i'll listen .
after talking with you , i feel kind of better .
ya . i admit that i think that your good friend is some other around you .
no matter how i tried to be a good friend with you , seems kind of hard .
i really miss alot people .
i miss the goodfriends , i miss them .
i know that no point dwelling on it .
i choose to continue to be good friends again .
Let's see how it goes bahs .

hotshot is nice [:
it teaches me alot of things man .
i mean not biblical things , but things that link to life [:
i feel very touch to see luo zhi xiang to sacrifice for his love's one .
can even sacrifice his life .
oh man , thats so cool !
went for care group today , and it's GINATAY'S BIRTHDAY !
happy birthday to you [ :
basically , wanna thank God for placing you in my lfie [:
happy birthday to you ! [:
anyway , we brought donut , subway cookies for her !
she is touch ok . cause she is in love with subway ! haha !
anyway , today is 1 of my friend birthday too .
she is grace and joyce .
they are twins . ohya . i think they won't see this . but just want to wish them [:
cause my blog is private . * laughs*
ok ! camp is around the corner ?
can i still have the desperation heart . oh please .
i want the song ! luo zhi xiang de . '' cause i believe ''
it's nice ! [:

23.11.08
Went to work and leave at 10plus . kind of early , thats why no pay ):
nevermind , i don't mind . cause i'm really tired .
went to meet joyce as she pass me time table .
after that go her house and exercise with her , as she say since you have to idea on going where then i will decide for you . ( that's evil ! )
Went to jurong point to buy math textbook and she buy her printer ink . reach-ed her house and weather seems bad .
But thank God it didn't rain .
but it has been long since i went for a run .
seriously , it's real tired ( Zzz ! )
i don't know how long we run , but for me is like kind of long .
joyce if you see this , i got potential to run with you right . can follow your beat in running ley ! :D
after that they at her house to do time table and watch channel 8 ! [:
i think is not that nice lor . i prefer hongkong show ! Rocks okay ! [:
and i realise something yesterday ! wahahas !
joyce loves ahyoyo when she is young ! *grins *
she will kills me if she is able to read it . LOL ! but too bad it is small .
stay at her house to overnight as it is kind of late , and i'm lazy to go home .
i realise her dad and mum is not that scary already [:

24.11.08
wake up 7 from joyce house . very early ! i'm very tired . somemore going sentosa with hillary and xiaoxuan .
Went home buy something to eat and drink ice milo [:
watch tv and fall asleep . ohmy .
i think school reopen it will be jialat luhs . overslept ?!
hmm , joyce call me to ask me wake up as i need to meet hillary & co .
But in the end , i still fall asleep again .
until when hillary reach-ed lot1 , i just wake up .
sorry ! today wasn't in a good mood .
maybe is because i'm too tired and think of many things .
after that meet joyce at woodland for dinner after going sentosa .
fall asleep at train .
meet joyce didn't talk much . i apologise for that ):

i've been thinking on the trip home . nearly cried
sometimes , i think i'm kind of selfish that i'll remember God when i'm feeling lonely .
but the fact is that he's always there .
sometimes i put friends then putting God in first priority .
sometimes i think that if there is a choice , i really don wan friend .
but without friend , i'm kind of lonely .
sometimes , i think that i'm kind of extra .
our friendship is really surface . all along , you're someone that i share my problems too .
and , my secrets is always kept by you .
whenever i need someone to cry out my sorrow , you will always be there .
actually , didn't you realise always i'm the one who look for you ?
i think i've been trouble you too much already .
maybe i should't bahs . i'm sorry ):
i really miss alot of people . sometimes , i really want to ask myself , do i really know what is joy ?
am i really those happy girl that smiles whenever she saw her friends and going to service ?
i know al this is kind of lame , but i really do cares . sorry .

Labels: moody ):

Wake up at 12 plus today .
i really enjoy the sleep today , no interuption .
when for shepherding . kind of slack today .
after that went for youth shepherd's meet .
pastor shirley life story is kind of interesting . haha !
yeah . i love alot today .
1. being faithful to what God has given me .
2. love people like how God does .
3. being more like jesus
yeah . i know is kind of common , but reminding myself lor [:
after that went to eat with zhengkai and his guys and vanessa , christine , gina [:
after that took bus back with them .
sathya is full of jokes man .
entertain us in the bus . haha
tomorrow should i go choir ? i think i'm going to overslept lor .
tomorrow is peter trong for harverster [:
i will set my heart to learn something new tml ! [:
i'm going to plan my week soon .
as there is something cool going to happen by end december ! < :
heroes camp is coming .
hopefully it'll be fun ? i'm not alone !

Went for caregroup today .
reach-ed there than rain ! Then water flow-ed and no place for cg.
End up , we're playing in the rain !
oh gosh . it've been long since i play in the rain luh !
childhood okay ! haha ! okay . in the end went bp to dry ourself and went garden plaza to continue holy com and sharing God's blessings upon us [:
tomorrow is shepherd's meet already , and meet gina for shepherding .
hmm , fruitful day [:
around , 5.30 meet up with wanling strawberry , priscillia , alvin daddy !
it has been long since i hang out with them .
especially daddy ! but he's more cool already .
smile to his friend but not his daughter . Tsk !
Daddy say don't need so many friend deh . can be mafan also . haha
half agree . but will feel lonely too mah .
he say we are not his friend , but daughter . haha
me and wanling high-five ! haha .
hmm . Daddy must meet us soon [:
okay . just not play too much .
next year n'level already .
i want to go poly ! ):
study hard ! i will and i don't want to disappoint people .
jiayou ! [:
i just serve God whole heartedly . but not , half hearted .
just pray and continue to have the heart for quiet time (:

Sometimes , i really miss those times when i'm in sec1 .
the first year i came to know christ .
The people i first know is the best even till now .
until now , when i came across talking to them , i really hope time will go back to the time playing with them .
i miss having lunch at starhub , after that play together .
oh man . this is all memories .
i really do miss them alot .
miss serving the lord with them .
in all the camp i went , Encounter is the best man .
i don't know this time round how's camp , but really hope i can enjoy and learn something new there .
If a fairy would want to grant me 3 wishes , i would want time to go back to encounter camp , and time stop there . second , i would want to feel even closer with people in church , having a family feeling . thirdly , i would want to serve the lord and bring many people to come to church .
Deep down in my heart , i really miss lor .
i can only think but won't happen again .
today i want to update about my thoughts .

Labels: thoughts and feelings

Went to work today [:
chit-chatted with jessica cousin & simin cousin .
decided to go sentosa after my work as it's cousin outing day .
Tomorrow and tuesday have to work as they say they wash market will have many people [:
Actually meeting Gina tml as she got important things to say .
BUt decided to meet on tuesday after caregroup .
This week is a busy week for me . everything is pack .
i think i'm happy lor .
i won't be wasting my week [:
thursday will be having shepherd's meet at nexus .
And Friday have a peter throng 's evangelism workshop at america room .
Seems cool lor . haha .
i bet i'm gonna learn something new ! [:
Hmmms . Praying hard that there will be more and more converts from Aes .
Bless me lord ! [:
I want to grow more in every area of my life [:
Hmm , i think i really think thru last night already .
i want to perservere man !
God continue to help me grow more and being strong and biblical [:

Went to service today .
was late for service as i waited for amanda .
Service today was kind of like science lesson to prove How great is our God .
hmm . paid camp fees today .
at first was kind of reluctant .
But after that i know that i need to grow and camp can help me grow stronger .
had a talk with joyce on the phone just now .
indeed she ask me to ask myself who is God to me ?
God is a friend of mine , a father of mine , God is everything to me .
Why am i doubting him yet he always bless me ?
How can i forget the grace he had for me .
forgiving my wrongs yet continue to love me .
Really hope that from now i will start everything anew .
And continue to have the passion for God .
Continue to place God in first priority .
If God can bless people in the bible , do miracles in the bible , i believe in this life time he can do something in me .
I don't want to lead life with no purpose .
i want to concern about my spiritual life .
i don't want myself to reach that time when i don't even care about my spiritual life .
Who will be there if there is crisis and will worthy friend still be there ?
i don't know .
But God you will be there for me right ? [:
you will continue to love me right ? [:
you will never leave me alone right ? [:
cause in the bible you said that '' never will i leave you , never will i forsake you ''
God i take your word [:
Praying hard that this camp , i will come to learn but not come here to worrying about being alone.
As God say , i'm not alone .
God continue to prove me that you love me .
my friends out there who want to help me to grow , i want to say that i will put in effort [:

woke up 7plus as i'm not feeling well .
vommited 6 times and really feeling terrible .
Went to see a doctor to have a injection to recover faster .
rest at home , till 2 and go lot1 for caregroup .
gina thanks for the drink [:
although never drink alot , but i do appreaciate it [:
went home after that , watch 花样少男少女.
the show is kinda interesting !
吴尊 is handsome [:
i'm addicted to taiwan show .
guys there are real handsome kay .
But it's like fairytales . Not really will happen in real life .
Now i'm feeling much better already . Hopefully tomorrow i'll recover [:
will be meeting up cindyho on tuesday , meet alvin daddy with wanling soon !
gotta catch up with them [:


i know that advices are good for me .
you help me and i need to put in effort .
yah . effort is not that easy .
maybe you are right .
friendship between us is just surface only .
i didn't share deep with you .
But i'll from today onwards .
friends isn't much that will be there for me .
i really do miss 3yrs ago , serving the lord with 2 of my friends .
things won't be the same again .
not to look back at the past and move forward .
i want to grow . but i want to enjoy my life too .
God help me

went to choir today !
is kinda fun .
no intructor but ms tiu is there to help us .
wow . she can be intructor lor . good ! [:
after that went to jurong point with hillary and xiaoxuan .
it's a good outing .
have a great talk with them . talk everything about my life .
sometimes i think that truefriend doesn't mean come from church but i believe truefriend can come from school too .
i really thank God for people like , xiaoxuan , hillary , wanling , celia , sherilyn , natalie , sining , zhiyun .
all those people are those who i have fun with .
chitchatting happily .
i really find joy in them .
but i know that joy comes from God .

There is no one i can share problem with .
i feel so lonely . still the extent i feel pathetic .
even talking to _____ , tears is flowing down .
i really feel so .....
sighhh ! ):
i know sometimes i enjoy being with you all .
but sometimes i don't get the interest you all like .
i really don't know .

anyway , joyce thanks for talking to me .
thanks for listening to my problem .
thanks for being there .
i really appreciate it .
thank you [:
you say you will be there for me de hor !
i'll always remember {:

few days never update blogg le .
today went for carnival .
things goes quite well .
我不想看到你 . 回忆会突然想起 ):
i not sure what i really want .
I'll always remember the love given by you . everlasting love . thank you God .
i promise that i wonte leave like the past .
help me to stand firm .
hmm . chit chatted with strawberry .
talk alot thing . meet her on tuesday ! {:
hope vulgar can tag along . hmm .
carnival we sell things like pasa malam .
herbal egg , muahchee , chocolate e claire .
haha !hmm . got alot things i want to say .
deep down in my heart . many things is unwilling .
i'm really sorry for some people .
i don wan things to go back to the past .
i'll regret one day .
but seriously i think i'm lacking of love .
sigh ! ):
i don know why i will doubt many things .
will i going to fall back ?
ohgosh . no please .
meeting strawberry on tuesday {:
so long neve go out with her ler {:
miss her la . {:
alright . tml going out again with cousin .
monday will always be the day i enjoy alot .
haha !
ok . shall not update much .
i perm my hair and cut my fringe . haha!

Today went to service {:
along with sining and odilia {:
praise God sining is converted !
Heaven is rejoycing .
father i just want to take this time to pray for this new believer of ours .
God although she is already sec4 but God i pray that she will bring more sec1 and sec2 to come and know you .
God i pray that you'll protect her and show her the love to the max .
father i pray that you will bless her result for N'level .
help her to score well and glorified your name .
God i commit this sister onto your hand .
bless her greatly .
in jesus name , amen .

recently , i'm in a good mood .
i always feel happy even though is really boring , but the feeling inside my heart is really very happy . praise God that my camp form is signed and my my pass me the money and ask dad to pass back to her the money , and i doesn't need to pay a cent .
praise God {:
God there is no word to express my thanks giving to you .
i really thank you for the wonderful love , the new sister of ours , the blessings you bless me .
thank you father .
i love you !

if there is someone i want to give thanks to , it will always be jesus .
if i want to ask who is there for me when i need someone the most , it will always be jesus .
if i break down and cry , who is there to comfort me , it will always be jesus .
thank you jesus for being for cheer leader to give me encouragement .
thank you for choosing me and have such a wonderful friends , family members .
the friends who is there to encourage me , celebrate my birthday for me , being my listening ears . thank you if you are the one who did one of this or everything .
i truly love you and truly want to say thankyou to you ! *hug*

THANK YOU JESUS FOR EVERYTHING !