Went to service today .
was late for service as i waited for amanda .
Service today was kind of like science lesson to prove How great is our God .
hmm . paid camp fees today .
at first was kind of
reluctant .
But after that i know that i need to grow and camp can help me grow stronger .
had a talk with joyce on the phone just now .
indeed she ask me to ask myself who is God to me ?
God is a friend of mine , a father of mine , God is everything to me .
Why am i doubting him yet he always bless me ?
How can i forget the grace he had for me .
forgiving my wrongs yet continue to love me .
Really hope that from now i will start everything anew .
And continue to have the passion for God .
Continue to place God in first priority .
If God can bless people in the bible , do miracles in the bible , i believe in this life time he can do something in me .
I don't want to lead life with no purpose .
i want to concern about my spiritual life .
i don't want myself to reach that time when i don't even care about my spiritual life .
Who will be there if there is crisis and will worthy friend still be there ?
i don't know .
But God you will be there for me right ? [:
you will continue to love me right ? [:
you will never leave me alone right ? [:
cause in the bible you said that '' never will i leave you , never will i forsake you ''
God i take your word [:
Praying hard that this camp , i will come to learn but not come here to worrying about being alone.
As God say , i'm not alone .
God continue to prove me that you love me .
my friends out there who want to help me to grow ,
i want to say that i will put in effort [: