meaningful life

2009-08-22T06:55:00.001-07:00

Recently never update.
But but but... I got A2 for my olevel chinese! :D
Thank god, i made it man. :> My birthday is comingg! Really excited for it but normally when i'm excited for certain thing, the thing will be ruin. Hahaha! I better go tell lion and jes don't make this celebration ruin. Hehe :> People please ask me out. Veryyy boreddd. I want meet lion :D Although she very funnyy and i'm so wanting to see her! Hahahahahahahaha! Okay, i want to go for a run tml . Ask lion already but i hope she can comeee. Waiting for her replyy. :>

2009-08-14T06:21:00.001-07:00

Today ain't a good day for me. Cg at first was very bad. I didn't support your decision. I'm sorry. Then after the movie, slack with gina , mingyee and zijie. Things turns ok then. Till i receive some sms when i get home, i feel like scolding myself why am i like this? And talking on the phone , still talking about same issues, i was hurt and i'm like why am i doing all this?! Then i receive another sms at night, It wasn't good as well. I shall say why in the next post. But overall, my day just sucks to the max. God, pls help me. I know it is not your fault so i shouldn't compromise you and i shouldn't think any far about my r/s with you . I don want second time to happen. I pray , and i want to remain good r/s with you. No second time . I'm sorry mingyee. Shouldn't tell you so much as i think i'm like adding to your problems.

2009-08-07T04:46:00.000-07:00

very long never updateee alr. I recover alreadyy. But my lip got ulcerr ): very pain. Prelims going over le. Life has been pretty normal. I miss out history, chemistry and physics paper as i'm sick. Bad headache, dizziness and cause vomitting. Very bad. Today celebrated National Day. Quite siannn. But still not bad la! :D Anyway, celia thanks for sending me the songs. Hillary thanks for teaching me to make the rosee! i love many many people in my life la! They just mean too much to me ! :D lovelove <3
i really hope i will pass my maths this time round! (:

2009-07-20T03:22:00.000-07:00

I'm currently sick. Down with fever and cough. My temperature always go up and down like a rollar coaster. I guess is because of the medicine. I have 2 day Mc. But i want to return back to school. Today didn't went to school because temperature was extreme high. like 39.2 ?
But now is 38.7. I don know whether tomorrow am i going to school but if i didn't go , i will miss alot of lessons. Pray that i'll get well soon. I want to eat alot of things. Haha!

2009-07-16T02:35:00.000-07:00

Didn't update recently.
School was alright and i start to love the clique i'm with now more and more! :D
Let me tell you who are they : Ziqun, Sarah, Sherilyn, Natalie, Chhay, Benjamin, Jane, Cleomine.
They are the one i'm with in school most of the time. Except this few days, Cleomine is sick. Get well soon! (: We're talking about findflends.com . Hahaha! you know then you know, don know then too bad loh! hahahah! is really joke ah. everything we say, sure got '' .com '' They are really funny and i really do enjoy their presence alot. If it weren't them, i think school days will not be that happening. Hahahah!
I'm currently at weixuan's house now! recently have been going over to his house. Playing with him and chit-chat loh. Prelims is like just 1 weeks plus 2 week? How is my revision. Sighh! i better start bucking up with my subject that i'm weak in. Hahah!
I did something very wrong today. I'm sorry. Hopefully not doing it again ba! :D

2009-07-11T07:19:00.000-07:00

I can't help to thank god for many things in my life.
- Zijie receive christ
- Weixuan receive christ
- Aes caregroup is growing
- i'm enjoying the presence of my schoolmates in school
- Service is great
- coping well in my maths.
- i learn alot today

All this things are enough for me to keep saying thank you jesus. He's just so great in my life(: I pray that Aes can complete by this july. Weixuan, Mengling, Qiaoling, Jesslyn and Zijie will continue to walk with Jesus till they see him face to face. I pray that god will protect them from the evil and continue to let experience his love into greater level. God's great! Westb1, two more to go! Jiayou! Jiayou! God bless us!!

2009-07-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

( I love you)

Do i look cool ? Haha

Wei xuan's cousin and me. Kenneth is his name.

Back view of me today (:

Zijie's erzi and me

Weixuan and me(:

Went to gombak stadium today with Weixuan, Zijie and Kenneth. Went there to run, and guess what, i run 6 rounds without stopping! (: In a month time , i must lose 5kg! especially in my stomach , better be flatter ): After running , went to cdans to play bowling. have a great time zilian-ing there. Haha. after that was raining very heavily. But we run out to the bus-stop. Bus-ed back home after that (:

2009-07-04T08:36:00.000-07:00

Life is great in camp. See this photo , you know my class very happening alr. Haha. Anyway, the photo have Me, Sherilyn, Natalie, Nara, Cleomine, Ziqun, Hariq, Benjamin and Chhay (: School was fine. Pray that i can catch up withh the syllabus that i should know well in. CPM ytd, it's awesome. Praise and worship was great, We gonna move to new venue by 2010. Have faith yeah? (: Service today, Praise was like finally got ' you lifted me out' This song just too great alr. Haha. have a great time praising and worshipping. Teaching was great. I learn that Jealousy always happen when we think that we take ownership of someone or something that don't belong to us. We don't own them . Yeah. that reflects my life la ):

I decided to sent an e-mail to christine alr. Telling her the struggles that affect me alot . I know god can solve it . But i don't want because of me , aes remain stagnent. I don't want this to affect my spiritual growth. I don't want to think of reasons to reason with her. I want to attend shepherding with a willing heart but not dragging my feet . Just let me change can? I still love her. But somehow there's something that stops me from sharing deep. Don't say deep. Even a simple thing like ' hey i not doing well' , i also couldn't speak it out . How bad it is ? How to open up? There's just too much for me to say. I don't know how to put them into words. So i couldn't describe why it turns this way. Ya, just let me can ? I'm sorry christine.

2009-06-30T05:30:00.000-07:00

Just went to cleomine's blog and say a quiz that she says is pretty true.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You value your friendships: 75%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

went school as normal today. School today was pretty fine (: After school, went to clark quay with Sarah, Sharon, Ziqun and Natalie. Went to buy sticky sweets , eat and walk walk awhile then take train back alone. Was very tired today but still fine. Haven't complete english homework. Sian Zzz... i don't want to do . Because i hate english, the story for paper 2 is also so boring ): I'm sorry. I'll do my work from the next homework (:
Caregroup tomorrow, pray that it will be a sucessful one. amen.

2009-06-28T06:06:00.000-07:00

Thank god that my brother is fine(:
Ziqun if you see this, i want to thank you. Really thank you deep in heart for understanding me and know what do i really mean and also giving me advises and stuffs. Thanks. You told me that you'll be there and you really do. thank you. anything , text me as well. Love you QunJie! (:
see you tml! (:

2009-06-27T23:26:00.001-07:00

service ytd. Worship was niceee.
Holy spirit please come and change my heart to love jesus more and more. Wasn't walking right because of certain stuffs. But well, i don't know what to do. After service have jes's farewell and unit meeting. After that walk ard plaza sin and dhouby ghaut station to eat at the nazi lemak there. Then ard 8plus, meet up with Lion to woodland to accompany her to eat. After that train to yewtee to change clothes and off to Lion's house to stay over. Didn't really have a heart to heart talk with her . But after some thinking, i really want to talk things out with her. Back home today at 11 plus and heard that korkor is down with high fever and all cough flu etc. Ambulance came and bring him to tan tock seng to check if he've H1N1. But god, i pray that you'll protect him from H1N1, amen. Just came home from tan tock seng. Didn't saw korkor there but hope that he's fine. If he really kanna , i think i'll have to quarantine. Zzz... Haven't do my homework and my heart is not right now because something happen just now ):

I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And see Your Spirit fall in power
Your love unfoldingGifts from heaven

I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And feel Your precious
Breath of heaven
Your all consuming love

Holy Spirit come in power
Change my heart
I want to live for You, my God
Let Your Spirit come in power
Change my life
That I may live for You my Lord
Fall on us Lord

I don't want to lose you la lion. Please don't choose to end ours and remain the friendship between you and the ... , please meet me to talk to me. i want to tell you alot of things. Lion is for forever but not just yrs. If you want to end our , please tell me face to face. And give me a choice. Don't decide yourself. I want to break down as reading your sms. It hurts me alot. Please don't so direct to me. I can't take it. I want to meet you. No matter what , i don't want to end. I never want to end it. I want my lion. I don't want you to be gone. everything we give a hug to one another, i'll think that will the relationship between us , change in a moment? So i never want to let go ): Friend means alot to me. Please don't hurt me. I hate her. I hate her. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ !

2009-06-25T08:39:00.000-07:00

Nothing special happen.
Went out with natalie , nara and co. to catch a movie. Transformer (:
Not as good as i expect but overall still ok loh . sound effect very good.
After movie at bugis , meet up with cousin eat dinner and go home (:

2009-06-21T14:31:00.000-07:00

What am i thinking about?

2009-06-21T06:15:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow going for West training day.
I'm very angry from the morning till just now. Disappearing makes me worried. But at least you reply me already. Phew. Waiting for your call.

2009-06-20T09:47:00.000-07:00

I'm in ushering for the camp with this people that i know (:

2009-06-20T09:22:00.001-07:00

service today . Reached early and meet up with Joyce to help out in housekeeping. I decided to join this ministry (: Service was awesome. i learn alot about what's people thinking about. People tend to give reasons after reason. And learn about being a role model. I want people to be inspire at the way i live my life. praise and worship was great as well. After service have harvester meet and Dewen ask us to find a accountability partner. I still don't know who do i want to choose? It must be someone i trust, biblical to help me in my growth. It's really hard. After that have Christine meet for awhile. We have a hi and bye hand signal. haha! it's really cool. After that went to ps with Shazalind, Vanessa and Xihwee. talk and window shopping . i saw a guess wallet really nice :D
60 bucks to buy it. It looks really nice :D It caught me and Shazalind attention. Walk till 9 and went to ''Just Asia'' to pass Joyce the jacket and train back.
'A' is just person A. nothing else.
Was on the train and i'm thinking of many stuffs la, god say in the bible to love your enemy. ohman, i swear it is even harder than .. I really hate 'A' god, why must i know someone like 'A' . And because of you me and ..... quarell like hell. maybe is not quarell but i can say somehow i'm angry towards her. I swear i really angry. Just take it as an example: We both ask the same things, somehow the respond are different. I don't think as a friend , i did not enough. i think i never treat people so good before. Well, since the 'A' so important to you then don't ever say she is someone good. To you and others la. But too bad, not to me. shall not say i hate , i shall say i dislike 'A'. I'm sorry for disliking your FRIEND. she so wonderful to you la. i just simply sucks ok. alright, nevermind. i remember my previous post. My life slogen. okay, fine. That's life.

2009-06-15T07:38:00.000-07:00

I'm back from unstoppable. I learn alot from this camp and i really want to apply it to my life. Dayone, i learn to be ready in the kingdom of god and not to be in a rush to prepare our hearts right because things will not be as good as preparing and be ready. leading a life with love, love people unconditionally. we need to have faith to believe miracles will going to happen. Daytwo, i learn to rely on god's strength and in any time of people, god can still do miracles. A servant cannot serve two masters. The church is the center point of compassion and justice through outreach and discipleship(: i learn alot. just type in the key point. Daythree, i learn that never make decision base on feelings. Have stability in your walk with god. We need to make an impact to the lost and broken world. (:

This camp makes big difference to me. Make me reflect upon my life towards god. But still, i'm insecure towards friendship. i'm very worried that you'll turn cold to me. Today may be good, what about tomorrow? No matter how much i do, you'll not love me even more. This seems the max to you. Why can't you treasure this friendship as much as i treasure? I know is hard for you. But to me , i really think that i did my best. can't you feel it? I never treat a friend so so good before. Really never in my lifetime. but still , i want to thank god for you loving me for four years. I don't want much from you. Really, just you to spare some time for me. Not others like that .... seriously speaking, i think i treat you better than the .. treat you. But no choice. you prefer that ... than me . so no matter how much i do , it'll never be enough. But i set a slogen for my life. if people were to be happy, i'll be happy. Thats make me think much more positive towards things in life. I swear , i really do love and treasure you alot. But it'll never be enough to earn your quality time. but no matter how you treat me , i'll still treat you very good. Because i treasure friendship alot. So my ... , i'll still do my best as a friend and treasure you alot. even better than the past (:

Love language:
1. Quality time
2. Physical touch
3. Receiving gifts

2009-05-30T09:13:00.001-07:00

service today was great and memorable.
2 important people in my life came to receive christ (:
which is my cousin , simin and my son zijie [:
praise god. worship during service was awesome, have a great sat (:

i realise that i have been wearing mask infront of my friends, i would want to be a great friends to them. And i just wouldn't reject any request from them because to me , they're happy so do i.
i'll do anything they would ask me to even to help them and i'm more then willing. Even when i'm hurt in certain areas, i would keep it to myself. That's who i'm infront of others. Why ? why will i want to be such a good jiahui infront of others? because i want to have the friendship and not lose everything. but i guess no point wearing the mask yet everything will still come to the end and people will not look at how good am i ? removing the mask and be who i am will be better because i'll not born to please others yet i'm suffering deep in my heart and my heart breaks into pieces. it's really painful , really terrible . please understand how i feel and not hurt me once more.

2009-05-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

3 more days to my Big day. Which is chinese o'level. It is like damn fast. i'm very worried for it. Recently is like super stress of many stuffs. But i want to take this time to thank the people who tell me their opinion and thanks for trying to make me smile (: Truly appreciated.
I really don't want things to turn this way. I know that i may be young to you. There is a certain age gap. But that doesn't mean i'm childish. that doesn't mean i'm lousy in helping people . That doesn't mean i don't understand what you're going through. please don't think in your own perspective only. Others don't think this way. There's alot things i would want to say. But the main thing is no matter how you treat me, i'll still treat you the same. This is my point of view. As for you, hope that your heart wouldn't be that heartless ba.

god, i pray that the comfirm visitors for westbone will not ps us last minute. Father, i pray that when they come , touch their hearts and they will not feel bored in the service. God i pray that service tml will be a success one(:

2009-05-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

It's you , its you, its you. I hate you deeply. You brings my life into a upper level and brings it down to the lowest level. You treat me well at times and treat me like hell at times. You say you love me , like as if you really love? Because of you , how many times have i teared? Teared cause of anger, teared cause i'm very sad. I feel so mixed up by what am i suppose to do. My heart breaks into pieces. What am i suppose to do next? end it? Or am i suppose to hold it on alone? My friend, you did it by ruining a little part of my life. Tears flow down my cheeks. My heart hurts alot. I don't know what's the feeling ..it's like !@#$%^&*()*&^%$#@!@#% . I want to shout , i want to say many things. I don't know how to put it to words. sighh ): Decided to let go this friendship after 4years? This decision is the best? I don't know what to do.

2009-05-24T06:28:00.000-07:00

back home after sending Joyce back.
Tomorrow still chinese from 8am to 2pm.
God, give me strength.
one more week and there it goes ):
worry for it ):

God will make a way
God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strengh for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
Rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and eath will fade
But His word will still remain
And He will do something new today

God please make a way for me):
rather confused now.
I know now w/o God, sure die.
I don't have any idea how am i going to do this paper.
): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

when will i meet you again ?
i don't know ?

2009-05-23T08:24:00.000-07:00

Finally back to update after so so long.
Just finished examinations BUT o'level chinese is coming.
pretty worried for it . It determines whether i go up to sec five anot.
God please bless me.
I learned from my devotion that God is my strength.
Whenever i'm down , deep in my heart i know that God you're there.
No words can describe how good are you to me.
Thank you very much.
today service, i also learn that i cannot let my emotion take control of me.
my life will be ruin if i allows my emotions to take control.
PRACTICE GOD'S BEST.
i don't feel like doing things that God thinks is best for me , the more i must do.
practice and i can control my emotions.
i cannot always feel this and that.
But do what god thinks is best for me .
unstoppable camp is coming !
i bet i'll be renewed by god.
prepare my heart right before going.
to learn something that changed my life.
i want back the passion for people.
God , please give me the passion .
I ask of you to help me to have a compassionate heart.

2009-04-10T03:50:00.003-07:00

very long never update le .
but i just want to say life is great for me (:

will update proper post very soon !

2009-03-28T05:43:00.000-07:00

LORD I LIVE YOUR NAME UP HIGHER
lord i lift your name up higher ,
higher than the mountain and the valleys.
lord i lift your name up higher,
higher than any other names .
And lord i lift your name up high, higher,
higher than all things upon the earth.
and lord i lift your name up high, higher
higher than all else .

This song really touch my heart alot .
Recently there is alot unhappy stuffs come upon my life .
And i ever thought of making decision to leave this church and go somewhere else .
Well , is kind of foolish .
But now i know that i'm not going to go somewhere else already .
I decided to stay in Hope to let people know that HOPE church is different .
This church is filled with love and they really love God .
And this song really touch me and i really want to lift God name high .
I want people to know that my God is real .
He bless me and always be with me .
I don't want to leave God , i want to be with God and allows him to fill me with his love .
I want my friends around me to know going church is not just the word church .
i don't want them to say that always church church church .
but i want them to know God is real .
Going Church is not just Church but is the purpose of going .
which is i want to serve God . i want to there to be in his presence .
I want to there to be touch by God .
Ya , this post i really want to tell God i will stay on to my spiritual commitment .
i said that i want to stay on till the end . Run the race till end .
And this spiritual commitment will stay on till the day i met God (:
Today is a special day to me that i finally reflect on certain things.
Staying on Earth is just currently .
But staying in Heaven is eternal .
I'll fellowship with people when i reach Heaven ba .
Lion , jiayou in everything you do .
Plant church ? alrights Jiayou . Make a impact there as well .
Now Perservere on in your training ba .
We'll still be friends cause i promise i'll grow .
Well , 6months then let this 6months spend with joy .
I'll still see you on sat right ? just that is 3weeks after 1stapril .
It will be fast . I'll spend time with you at heaven ba (:
Now , i will rely on God and we'll still be Lion forever right ? (:
we'll still meet up , chat . But our focus is to extend the kingdom .
cause life is short , reach heaven then cannot share gospel le (:
So this will be the focus and i really want people to know that our friendship is not just a normal friendship but a friendship that both of us love God and even we love God , we can be close friend and serve God till the end (:
If there is chance , i would want to go plant church with you as well (:
cause i think if there is this chance . i bet i will grow alot ! (:
Lion , thanks for everthing and i'll be awaiting for 6months to pass and awaiting for your good news that my lion is a police woman to protect me ! (: HAHA !
perservere ley ! okay . i'll keep you in prayer {: see you on tuesday {:
and after tuesday , see you very soon ! (:
i bet it'll be exciting ! when you come back during weekends , there'll be alot stories i would want to tell you ! (:
TAKE CARE LION , I'LL STILL LOVE MY LION .

JIAYOU ! JIAYOU ! JIAYOU !

2009-03-24T08:17:00.000-07:00

I work so hard for my study but i still fail my english .
Why say i didn't work hard ?
Stop comparing me with my cousin .
So what she is from china ? Her subject better then me very good ?
in your heart , she is always better then me la . My dad's niece ma . that's why .
I go ite don't let me study ? then don't luh . Ite have its good choice as well .
Ite doesn't mean no hope .
I don't want to work . i'll study no matter what .
All along my english is weak ma . i need time ma . then say i never work hard . nevermind ):

2009-03-24T06:17:00.000-07:00

Today seems better.
i can sleep today (:
i just do a survey from facebook. i show you the outcome .
it speaks right into my heart {:

You are a person of Time and Attention. This means you are most touched when people spend time with you and listen when you talk. You enjoy to do the same for others. Time and attention are a great way of communicating, but when someone else you love doesn't necessarily talk the way you do, it doesn't mean they don't love you. What would be their primary love language? The downside of this love language can be people assume you are lazy because you take your time. Try to find out how hey treat you when they try to show love, and try to speak their love language back to them so they feel loved. One last point to mention is that God also communicates in your love language. He uses time and attentin, too. He says in the Bible that He loves you, that you are the apple of His eye, and that He wants you to come to Him and talk to Him. He loves you and gave Jesus (God Himself in human form) to bridge the gap caused by the fall of sin through which we cannot fully obey the law He gave us. He made the solution through Jesus, and when accepting Him, you'll accept God Himself, Who loves you, and wants to communicate with you. You are the attention, His focus. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. Yes, He is timeless, patient, for ever present, and eternal!

this hits what i'm thinking about {:

2009-03-23T07:04:00.001-07:00

Mood : confused , depressed .

i don't know what to type actually . But my heart hurts luh . Feel facebook also can make me this of many stuffs . I wonder and ponder asking myself why am i so bad ?
I ain't good , actually your actions already tell me who is really your good friend .
And once a question came to my mind , should i give up on this ?
But i really 舍不得. First time in my life i broke down and cry for a friendship ley .
Lion , that's how important you're to me .
I don't know how to say in words . But i really want to tell you that .
4years ago till eternal , No one is going to replace you .
I say and i mean it . Never will another replace you .
Maybe you're different but that's how i feel . There's alot for me to say . But i don't know how la .
I hate myself . Why am i so 败类. useless .
i really want to tell you :
1) DON'T ASK ME TO FIND ANOTHER TO LOVE .
2) DON'T HELP ME TO FIND GOOD FRIEND .
3) LOVE ME LIKE HOW YOU DID IN THE PAST .
4) DON'T BE SUN WU KONG .

DON'T KEEP CHANGE CAN ? CAN YOU REMAIN ?
LION , SMS ME TELL ME WHETHER YOU GO IN THAT TIME WILL COME OUT AFTER HOW MANY WEEKS CAN ? YOU'LL SMS ME WHEN YOU'RE INSIDE RIGHT ? YOU'LL STILL MEET ME RIGHT ? WILL YOU ?

2009-03-22T06:56:00.000-07:00

You treat me good at times , treat me bad at times .
One more week and you hurt me now ?
you hurt me straight into my heart .
Why must you abandoned me ?
Why must you ? why must you leave xiaolion alone ?
why must you end it after 4years ?
why must you like that ?
i don't want this to be this way ?
why must you end it and make my 6months spend like torturing me ?
i feel like slapping you and say can wake up anot ?
can don't hurt your xiaolion ? you end it hurts me even more ?
You get it ? dumboo !
can you take back your words ? can you ?
don't avoid me can ? xiaolion don't want you to be like this .
Lion , please . take back your words can ?
I beg you not to leave me alone ? ):

2009-03-21T05:50:00.000-07:00

Service today .
wasn't in a good mood to go service .
But i think God don't deserve to treat him with a black face .
So as i worship and praise , i told God i will smile and attend the service .
worship really awesome as well as praise (:
after service went to meridien eat .
Saw lion today (:
after eating , went to sent yiqing to 190 bus stop .
I'm so wet la , lion lent me her unbrella .
black colour , so nice (:
went to west haverster meet .
Teaching didn't really focus la .
Was thinking about some stuffs . Mood very low la .
I don't know why . then couldn't focus well .
after that went to take train back home at 7pm .
i cry inside the train again .
So disgrace . i don't know why actually . Just feel very heart pain la . ya luh .
Then went home , i decided to walk under the rain then walking shelter .
Cause i need some time to be alone . where walking outside got no one .
So i walk under the rain and cry la . I feel very terrible . thats why .
Cannot stand the pain in my heart ):
ya luh . One more week left ):
The week where i'll treasure the most (:

although is just 6months and she may come out on sat and sun .
But i still feel very sad .
i really don't know why .
Ahhh ! Lion ah lion .
i don't know say what .
But i really don't know what to do next .
there is many things i would want to say .
But ... Sigh ! ):

2009-03-20T05:15:00.000-07:00

went home at 10plus in the morning .
Ain't in a good mood , i don't know why .
Went home , cried lah as i was blogging the previous post .
I don't know what am i thinking actually .
I just feel very hurt . My heart hurts alot .
Went to choir in the afternoon . Meet up with my choir friends .
Didn't smile alot lah , they still ask me if i'm ok anot .
Do i really look like i'm very sad ?
But thank God that during the cleaning process , my choir friends make me smile lah .
Thanks richard , sining , linda , xiaoxuan , hillary , zhiyun and zijie .
Although is just awhile la , but i feel much better at that moment .
actually i decided to fellowship with my choir friends and meet gina tml .
But i think i need God's word to help me in this moment .
I feel so empty right now .
God can you make me smile infront of people ? i don't want to cause people having bad mood just because i didn't smile la .
I pray that i'll smile when i meet the choir people , but i failed la . sorry god ):
I couldn't take it la . sound so stupid actually .
I don't know why ley . Really , i don't want to feel sad . But then , i don't know why i cry .
God ! help me ! ):
But thank God that i have the courage to account to gina today .
It has been a long time , i have a talk with her . Thank you daddy .
But God can you make me feel better .
My heart like going to break into pieces .
Service quickly come . i want to dwell in the presence .
I scare i might cry ley ):
God bless me .

2009-03-19T20:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to meet up with Liyan & joyce and Liyan's sheep .
Went to yishun to eat chicken rice .
after that went to plaza sing as joyce is meeting her shepherd and i slack around there to wait for her and train back to yewtee.
After that i decided to go peiying's house with joyce as something happen and i don't know how to go home .
train to bishan and i told joyce to alight there to let me have some time to cry out la .
I really feel very sad .
It's really long ok . You don't know how do i feel .
I really feel very weird without talking to you , without meeting you and cannot sms you .
I really miss you la .
feel weeks ago , or even 1 month plus ago , you tell me you may be waiting for them to see you're able to be a prison officer or a police officer , that time i already feel very sad la .
but in another hand , i feel happy for you {:
And i hope that day won't come so fast .
But now in a week time you're gone for training .
Ohman , thats fast la .
How i feel i can spend my 1 week time with you.
Even after your ministry , i'm fine with it .
Lion , cry after cry even now i cannot really smile with joy la . Cause i'm very sad ):
In bishan mrt i cry , inside the train i cry , at yishun ntuc i cry , yishun mrt station i cry, after i went home , tears just flow down .
It sounds so stupid . But there is a reason behind la .
When i am in primary school , till secondary school life , i don't have a friend that i can rely on . The friend will either quarell and walk our own ways .
Till 4years ago , i know you .
I don't know we can be such a good friend and i don't know we can be so close .
But now you became someone who i trust , who i love and who i treasure alot .
No matter how naughty i am , you still love me and pampered me .
i gone through alot with you .
Like you accompany me to run cross country , that day after metamorphosis , at jurong mrt station , i feel sort of like ughhh . But you appear behind of me . i go your house , run with you , you cook for me . you just pampered me alot .
But i want to tell you that i never take you for granted .
But i truly appreciate you for treating me so well .
In my life , you 're someone who is really a true friend to me .
A lion that i don want to lose .
yesterday i make a prayer to God when i cried .
i said : God when she is inside having the training , be with her that she is not alone . she can take good care of herself . God i have a request from you . 6months is really very long . I don't know how to spend my 6months . Help me to rely on you more . And God i just ask to receive a message from her everyday . One will do . Sat and sun , can i just see her once . at least i saw her . I'm happy enough . And God can joyce come out every sat and sun? if cannot , can you please do something about it ? God thats all i ask from you . This friendship of us is not as strong as in the past but I believe that after 6months , we still able to be very close. 6months may be long but if everyday can receive a sms from her and sat and sun can see her , i'm very happy already .
This is my prayer to God when i cried yesterday . And i'm thankful that i spend 19hrs hours with you yesterday till today . I'm thankful for it . Lion , don't think that i'm silly but i really think that is just 1week left to your training . Very fast ):
Yesterday is your first time seeing me crying at the mrt train .
i don't know what happened to you that you have been asking me many questions but i want to tell you that to me , you're a great friend . Really , you're someone that really good to me .
Don't ask me if i think which part of you are bad but i think you're good although there's area you need to grow in as everyone is growing . So let's grow together .
I promised you after the 6months , i'm be a matured lion .
I'll grow in the lord and be obedience . You also must promised me to jiayou for your training okay . Must sms me ley . Don't forget me please ):
sat you come out must give me a hug ok ! (:
must come find me ):
don't mia okay . i'll be waiting for your sms when you're inside training ah.
Tell me how's life inside the training place ah . ok ?
can you meet me once more before 1st april ? ):
I LOVE YOU LION . THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING .
I'LL WAIT FOR YOUR SMS AND AWAITING TO MEET YOU VERY SOON .

Extended Prayer meet is awesome !

2009-03-18T08:33:00.000-07:00

Went for metamorphosis and extended prayer meet .
Is totally awesome .
God's presence filled nexus .
And i'm total enjoying the presence (:
God really speak right into my heart to really believe that he is in control .
There's an example (:
I thought i couldn't stay for the whole prayer meeting as i leave home at 10am like this .
Then reach home so late sure kanna scolded .
But God really bless me .
Having faith in him , in deed he bless me . My mum went out with my aunt and reached home later then me .
Ohmygoddd . How great is my God ! {:
I really feel recharge after the extended prayer meet .
God see my heart desire . My prayer to you (:
Thank you God , i love you daddy (:

2009-03-17T08:28:00.001-07:00

Currently i removed everyone to read my blog already .
only you can read it .
Cause this post i want you to read it .
Well , i just speak everything that comes out from my mind .
Remember weeks ago , i say lets end this friendship i don wan to be your friend already .
you tell me you don wan .
Then i was like ok .
Then now i told you that between us don't seems to have this word ''friend'' already .
You said , '' i guess ''
well , what do you mean ? you really want to end this friendship ?
then why you don wan to tell me that time ?
Why must it be now ?
Why will things turn till that bad ? Do you know if i were to know 4years later things will turn this way , then i would not know you 4years ago .
I will not be hurt , i will not cry , i will not think why just because i backslided then things will turn this way ?
Do you know you make me feel like i just went into prison . i am out from the prison , you won't treat me like how it were in the past .
How painful is it ? How hurtful it can be ?
If being lion can be until like that , then what's the point ?
Why not just be a stranger to me ? will it be better ?
not interfering your life , will it be better ?
Not meeting you , you will have more time to meet your goodfriend , will it be better ?
is that the answer you want ?
you show me that i am already TOTALLY not important to you already ?
I'm just a extra friend in your life . Then what's the point for me to treat you so well when what i get in the end which is just you treating me so badly ? ):
That time you cried in the phone , you know i feel so bad ?
Really . I feel like i make someone who usually don cry , crying out in the phone .
How worst am i to you ? I'm just such a bad bad friend to you .
i make you cry in the phone , make you angry , make you feel irritated .
Then what's the point ?
I feel rather hurt when hearing you cry . i feel like going over to your house and say , don cry .
Just you to stop crying , i will feel less bad .
Lion , if i were to ask you a question , will you be who you are 4years ago , what's your answer ?
Am i still very important to you or someone else is much more important to you already ?
i bet i know your answer already .
You won't be who you are 4years ago . cause you already found someone better .
Sorry lion . i just feel like typing everything out .

2009-03-15T06:25:00.000-07:00

I re-commit myself into this church on 16th August 2008 .
it has been 7months already .
Many things happen in this 7months.
There's joy , sorrow , anger , jealousy etc .
It's not a easy 7months for me .
Friendship between us , how much do i love god , etc.
I must change to someone who doesn't care if people don change. i myself must change will do .
You told me this , ya is true .
is time to grow . Really , it really takes many areas of life .
I wonder , do i really enjoy ? Or is something i have to ?
Well , i shall learn to look further .
Which is eternal life .
This will be the goal and i just run the race till the end .
Which many areas of life i need to grow in .
1st. love for the worthy people .
2nd. patient towards people .
3rd. being more understand .
Well , there is much more .
pastor shirley said that we will never stop growing . There is always something to know God more. It will not stop .
There is always something to learn and grow .
Even you are a very old believer , we still have to learn .
I admit , walk with God is really hard to me .
There is always 2 things to choose either God or go somewhere else.
Well , is really hard .
i know the answer is to go to place to meet God .
Well , why didn't tell me earlier ?
Why must always tell me last minute ?
If i know earlier , i will not meet anyone already .
Now , tell me what to do .
Rejecting people is what i hate the most .
Tell me earlier can ? ):
I really don't know what the hell am i doing recently .
I've been thinking much which i shouldn't .
God , bring me close to you again .
I'm willing to let you touch my heart .
You're so wonderful that how can i compare you with worthy stuffs ?
Worthy stuffs really doesn't worth anything .
It don't last . Why must i bother to consider at worthy stuffs in the past ?
If i were to grow strong and biblical in the past , i don't think the people around me will backslide . i will do my best to make them stand strong and not going together with them .
This is somethng why i didn't make it in the past .
Just not say about the past but the present .
I decided to remove certain people to come to my blog already .
cause from today i shall post more about godly stuffs .
I shouldn't be so emo already . I should start thinking .
What to do to make this school grow ?
I know it starts with our own personal growth .

God , i want to take this time to really pray for this school that was not growing for months.
people may come and go or even don feel like coming . God i really want to surrender my everything to you and make this school grow . I don't know how to say but God i really want to see this school filled with more people and i believe it helps being more united as well . God , i will learn to accept people and really don't want myself to affect the growth of this school . God i will still believe that you can make miracles to happen . If you can do miracles in the bible , i believe even now you still can cause God you never change at all . I commit everything into your hand that i will have faith and believe if i walk right with you , you will pour in fruits into this land . Amen.

2009-03-10T05:41:00.000-07:00

School as usual today till 6plus .
Was sitting with nara for english and math period then i kanna the flu from him ! ):
Thanks ah nara !
School was fine today .
But don't really feel happy over certain things lah . sighh !
after extra lessons , go lot1 with natalie .
Dearest , so long never go out together le ah .
Let's go sheng siong one day to get our drinks and your ice-cream . Haha (:
Tomorrow cca day . Hms , if rain then good la . so cooling . woolalala! (:

at first i kind of look forward for holiday , but now , i don't think there is a need lah .
Sighh . i know that having high hopes in certain things , i will always be disappointed .
I don't know why . I always look forward in going , but in the end still failed . sighh .
Forget it , i shall not look forward for anything anymore .
Since i will always be disappointed .
How i wish i still can go ):
i really want to spend a quality time with you .
But , still fail la ):

2009-03-09T07:40:00.000-07:00

Went school today. Feel so reluctant to go school .
How i feel holiday to come in a blink of eyes.
Lessons as usual . But didn't attend p.e. as i'm lazy to change and very tired .
After school went to jurong point with ning , zijie , justin and 2 of ning's friend.
Ate pepper lunch and make a cake for richard .
Hope he'll feel touch and like the little token from us.
After that take train back with zijie and justin .
Tomorrow lessons straight till 7pm . Sighh ):
I'm going crazy already soon.
This sat is ''your curtain call'' . special service with nice y-hope production .
People please do come ! performance rocks ok !

Sometimes there is many many questions in my mind .
How important am i to you ?
No matter i say how many things , things are still like that .
Then what's the point ?
I'm not the one who have high expectations .
But is what a basics thing a friendship needs .
Nevermind . I don't know what to say as well .

2009-03-06T03:27:00.000-08:00

so long never update already .
I just undate about sec4 camp . Is awesome ok !
although is day camp , but it really rocks my socks and shoe (:
Let me introduce my intructor for this camp : Fizzi and Wawa .
i am group 8 and i combined with group 7 .
My team rocks ok ! we're bonded on the second day (:

First day
assemble at school then waited for the intructors to come and bused to Yishun safra country club, the camp site . assemble at a place and then introduce who is our intructor and off we go for high elements (:
Ohmyygooddd . i swear i'm freaking scareddd !
My leg and hand shivering like never before lohs !
the intructor at the top so funny loh .
But in the end i come down le . Walk feel like i can fall down anytime . HAHA .
Then play rock climbing .
i didn't climb until very high . Got height de okay .
Plus my leg already so weak after the 7th story high element .
i climb 2 time of the rock climbing . haha
then went to have lunch and stuff then have some funny cheers from the intructor .
The raining heavily then when the rain is not tha heavily then took bus back to school .

Second day
assemble at school then bused to yishun safra again .
have talk in the air con room (:
was playing with ziqun , caifang , jane , natalie and yongjun.
Had low element .
Is fun with the team .
we're bonded and we did well (:
got a game , whether do we trust our friend and we have to fall back to the big cloth.
I'm scared but i did it (: *clapclap*
And the whole team did it (: *claps*
WELL DONE TEAM 7 AND 8 !
have our lunch and bused to suntec .
exibition for careers and education.
after that bused back to school .

Last day
reached school , went to computer lab to see which occupation we want in future ?
Then go back class to have a session with form teacher .
Then break time and we use a little time to prepare .
Went hall after that for performance from all the group .
Have a great time there .
And our performance is specially delicated to our intructor (:
i'm going to miss this camp and of course intructor fizzi and intructor wawa (:
You guys rock okay ! (:
Thanks for everything in this 3days ! (:
and this is the end of the sec4 camp ):

Lessons is going to back as usual .
Which is N'level coming soon! ):
Service tomorrow .

2009-02-21T05:06:00.000-08:00

Combined service today (:

Title : preparation to conquer the land.
1. circumcise my heart- live a life of repentance (v2-v9)
2. celebrate God's love- live a life of communion (v10-v12)
3. commit to God's leadership- live a life of surrender (v13-v15)

Today's sermon , i learn that * i will go deeper with God , i will grow stronger in god , i will go further with God (: *
-> keep our life accountable as well those you love them , we are accountable of their life .
-> Depend on God , we can make a difference in our life.
-> In the midst of nervousness , there is trust and believe from God as well (:
-> Go to school to impact lives of others .
-> With the bible as out referee , Hold spirit as our witness , we'll solve the problem biblically (:

I learn alot today (:
Y-hope is a church that concern alot on those who haven't receive christ .
They do what God calls the church to do .
Bring people to know him .
After today , i realise that the church really go all the way to win souls .
And why am i having the mindset of giving up aes ?
I should start to have the spirit . I cannot give up . I must know how important is the lost souls .
Can you imagine that when those people blame you for not sharing christ . How guilty will it be ?
They need someone to tell them the goodness .
Hey people , let's start to share the gospel to the lost ones .
How will they love God when there is no one sharing to them who God really is ?
MAN WILL FAILS US , BUT GOD NEVER FAILS US !
GOD LOVE US MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE .

God really bless me greatly this week (:
Something bad happens yesterday .
I nearly cried . cause you're really important to me .
please be a good girl and stop doing silly thing .
promise to mix with good company ok .
i'll keep you in prayer (:
after this incident , i start to treasure alot alot people around me .
I'm afraid , i'll love you people even more .
Take good care friends (:
especially , real-blood cousins and Lion .

I'm catching up with my studies now .
i will do my best to go sec5 and enter poly.
i will be a good girl in school and lead a life that please God and my parents even my friends(:
Jiayou Jiayou (:
anyway , thanks lion for talking to me ytd even how tired you're and accompany me when i feel so afraid about the incident . Thanks ! (:

2009-02-20T04:25:00.000-08:00

School was fine .
But recently i was always '' attack '' by teachers .
call my mum , complain -.-
My catching up with my maths still ok .
As for physic , ohhmyyygooddd !
Have been talking in class with xiaoqun , purple cloudd , xiao cleooo and sarah soon plus my sherilyn suenn! Always laughs with jokes lah ! haha(:
have been talking on phone every night with Lion .
Almost whole week ? Ha .
i've cleared my detention (:
LION GAVE ME A LOVE LETTER LEY .
HAHA , SO SWEET OF HER AH *grins*
WITH THE CHOCOLATE SHE GAVE ME 3YEARS AGO .
So cute of lion . haha

EH LION STOP SAYING THE JUNIOR OF MINE AH .
HE IS MY FRIEND ONLYYYYY .
THINK TOO MUCH LOH YOU .
YOU MY FRIEND 4YEARS LEY .
DON'T SO SENSITIVE LA . HAHAHA !
okay , silly lion .
i know you playing with me . haha

Life will be even better , i believe .
I don't know what am i suppose to do next ?

2009-02-07T06:37:00.000-08:00

Service today .
Take bus with 6 people .
Kind of pathetic . But WestB will continue to grow (:
Valentine service , we'll reap the harverst .
Amanda came service today (:
Didn't go anywhere after service .
stay at meridien awhile .
Then take train home with Shazalind .

I learn alot from today teaching ! (:
when we're hurt , don't keep it to ourself .
We must go into worship and prayer or even fellowship.
Share it to someone who can help you .
Whenever we're hurt , it is always when someone close to you didn't meet your expectations .
I totally agree with this . Cause i experience it before and almost quarell because of it .
To that particular someone , i finally understand it already .
Sorry for being childish and i promise to grow (:
Continue to love me and i'll treasure you even more , dearest friend (:
Jiahui it is time to grow and chiong to reap the harvest .
I promise , aes will not remain this way .
This land will turn upside down .
i will be more mature and hang out with the right people that helps me grow (:
Thank you for telling me the area i need to grow in .

VALENTINE DAY SERVICE NEXT SAT . HELD AT NEXUS AUDITORIUM .
THERE WILL BE HIPHOP DRAMA , BEATBOX AND EVEN DJ .
COME AND HAVE FUN !
TELL ME IF YOU'RE FREE ! FEEL FREE TO INVITE YOUR FRIENDS ALONG !
TIME , I THINK IS 12 TO 2.30 (:

2009-02-06T04:43:00.000-08:00

Recently have been reaching cck station earlier .
Meet up with Sining first to have our breakfast , which is harshbrown :D
Bus to school and the choir senior decided not to go SYF already .
Have a talk to mrKeh with the choir seniors and we decided to go another competition .
Really no time to go furthermore there is extra classes and even homeworks .
Choir today was alright .
Have lots of fun with there .
Rachel is not my buddy already as she is in another group .
My new buddy is Zijie .
my new Erzi . haha .
Richard going to be my son soon . haha (:
Sining , hillary and zhiyun is my daughters .
Nonsense loh !
Went to lynette's aunt house as Sining wants to cut her fringe .
Went lot1 buy dinner and go home after that .
Lmao = laugh my ass out .
i just know it lohs . how stupid i am . HAHA .
Tomorrow is service already (:
Miss alot people there .
Should be going home after service ba .

On wednesday, have a talk with Joyce on the phone .
She always scold me until i'm really knowing what am i really doing .
Reflecting upon the actions i do .
She always tell me to obey even i don't feel like .
Obey even i dislike the leader . I'm obeying God .
i should care how God look at me than how others look at me .
She shows me 2 verses .
Telling me to mix with the right person .
I agree with her , and decided to be a good girl and obey and be a shepherd soon :D
I cannot base on friendship in the church to stay on . No use de . i need God's love and secure .
Knowing how great he is and walk right with him to stay on till the end .
I will and i comfirm will (:
Mould me , change me and grow me .

2009-02-04T06:24:00.000-08:00

School today .
Meet up with Sining , zhiyun and zijie .
Cute little Boy .
Saw natalie as well .
Reach-ed school , lesson as usual .
Don't wish to say , nothing special .
Debating tomorrow .
The motion is : This house believe that uniform should be abolish .
Just say what comes out from my mind then .
I realised whenever i'm looking forward for something , it'll be ruined.
Just like today . Don't wish to elaborate that much either .
I'm sorry people , maybe that's my fault bahs .

But recently people are always like that .
I did change already . Why can't just believe that i'm not like the past .
Being a typical ahlian ? wearing like one of them .
I'm changing .
Although i hang out with people who're kind of bad in the past , doesn't mean i'm one of them right ? I don't know why either .
Break down and cry cause sometimes i wonder why ?
And why when it comes to blaming why this and that , just to make you yourself is alright , then say i'm the one at fault ? Aiya , forget about it . Just don't sit near me and i won't talk to you guys . I'm sorry .

2009-02-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

Service yesterday !
atmosphere is awesome .
God totally speaks to me and i'm having a heart to heart talk with God .
Telling him and wanted him to help me so much .
After service have harverster meet .
Well , i went for it [:
Joyce must be happy that i go . HAHA !
Actually cannot go de . Made up my mind to go (:
I learn alot from the teaching teach my dewen .
Valentine's Day service is coming .
2weeks later (:
Hey if you can come , please come .
It's excited as there is beatbox , hiphop drama .
Is nice and exciting .
After harverster meet , went down to bugis with Shazalind and waiting for Peisze to reach .
Shop and went to westmall coffee bean to meet up with Korkor and jonathan (:
Have some lame jokes and the owe me and peisze a pepper lunch just to know the answer (:
HAHA . thanks ah !
11plus take bus to bukit gombak to have ''dinner'' ?
Should be supper already .
Have lots of fun there . I'm always saying some lame things there . Where they can't stand it .
HAHA ! but korkor is too comfirm telling us bus 947 can reach .
In the end , we from interchange take a round back to interchange lah . That's lame lohs .
Then take another bus and we were the last to reach .
Have some mas selamat topic inside the bus . HAHA !
after supper , went to cdans to have bowling competition between the 8persons .
HAHA ! Hanging out with them , is totally awesome lah ! (:
love them till max (:
Reached home around 4.30am .
Wake up at 7.30 to work .
Panda eyes is coming out soon .
Today , work and reached home to make blogskin for zijie and after that i made one for myself [:
I see mine till siann already -.-
Haven't put songs . any idea ?
sleep at 5plus till 8 plus [:
Tml school day again . But i'm going to have a great fun in class to tell lame jokes . HAHA .
Going to Hillary's house tml .
Don't know whether should i go home change or ? Mafan ):
I want to watch movie ! Bride wars and the wedding game .
people now adays are evil . Ask them , comfirm got 1 or 2 object de luh ):
I just see who is the kind souls to go catch a movie with me .

2009-01-29T03:54:00.000-08:00

Chinese new year house visiting is over already loh .
Super fast .
Went to aunt house almost everyday .
monday night , went to play lan at orchard till morning 7am .
muahaha . then next day stay at aunt house till 8plus then go over to Joyce's house .
As i said i'm going already .
Go there without oranges . Sound so stupid . Sorry .
Have a great time there .
I'm super crazy and laughing non-stop at her house .
Her niece is cute . Super cute lah . haha !
Go home at 1plus 2 . KorKor come fetch me .
wednesday didn't go school as i'm still in chinese new year mood .
Heard from Sherilyn , many people never go also . HAHA .
Went to Daddy's friend house for house visiting at a very far place .
Stay there till 5plus . Got a big Dog . very friendly Dog [:
Went over to woodland to meet Joyce .
Actually catching a movie with her .
But the timing kind of late .
So she PROMISE me next week already .
LION see this ! PROMISE NEXT WEEK HOR !
hehe ! i got 300 angbao money ! [:
i can go eat eat eat already ! [:
i'm looking for a private tutor .
I want to improve my math and plysics .

SHAZALIND .
Happy belated Birthday to you .
this columm is specially for you .
Yuan DaYing love you la .
I know you know .
Did you enjoy your birthday ?
Must enjoy every single day made by our daddy [:
Any prayer request ? tell me . i'll keep you in prayer [:
i love you sister <3

2009-01-26T05:08:00.000-08:00

Currently at cousin's house .
Nothing to do .
Should be going partyworld/kbox later .

2009-01-25T05:38:00.000-08:00

Had Reunion dinner at home .
Ate steamboat , uncles and cousins come over .
Had a great time chit-chatting .
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR .
i'm going to miss shazalind when she is in malaysia .
Take good care of yourself sister .
Don't get sick okay .
I'll wait for you to come back to share your life and jokes with me [:
See you real soon okay .
Happy early birthday to you first !
Going to turn 15 le .
Must Jiayou in the kog alrights .
WestB is going to grow into higher levels (:
Loveyou *~~trembling , family~~ * muahahah .

Vanessa , Melissa and shihui
Happy Chinese new year .
This year is special that i celebrated with you guys .
I really enjoy playing sparkles with you all .
Jiayou okay .
see you guys very soon .
Take care of yourself .
Don't get sick alrights .
Loveyou poeple <3
Joyce!
Happy chinese new year !
May God continues to bless you into higher levels .
Jiayou alrights .
Loveyou many lahs .
I love you thats why you love me .
Correct ?
I know you the longest dehs .
Means you should understand me very well [:
I'm very glad this year i'm celebrating chinese new year with Jesus and people like you .
I'm very very glad to know you .
Really , thanks for loving me and thanks for helping me in many areas of life [:
And , i'm going to keep you in prayer .

Father i commit all my sisters and brothers into your hand . Be with them , protect them and bless them greatly . As we spend our daily life with you , make it the fullest and we will expand the kingdom as day goes by . Help us to do things in the right attitude . Pour down fruits to us!
We want to grow ! WE ARE EAGER TO GROW !
People change but you remain the same .
God be with us .
Amen .

2009-01-24T05:27:00.000-08:00

Didn't went service today .
Went to work for daddy .
Alot people . But time flies quite fast (:
Reached home bathe and went to lot1 meet up with shazalind they all .
I go join Shazalind team .
Waterbomb and stuffs . But i didn't get wet !
Played at cck part . got West huddle .
But the name change to the West 游记!
Take some photos with shazalind , shihui , vanessa and melissa .
i will update me and shazalind when i rotate the picture .
Happy chinese new year ! [:

2009-01-23T04:36:00.000-08:00

Went to school for CNY celebrations today . I realised celebrations is getting even boring each year . Nothing de luh . Only at class room do decorations , play games and in the end the whole class shouted ''huat ah'' ! haha ! This class is going to give me a good memorable year . After school went to westmall with sining , zhiyun and hillary . Went to eat and went to library to chit-chat . Afterwards , richard come over to look for us , treated him pokki , sining treat him bubble tea .
have some snapshot outside westmall .

I'm still down with cough ! I have been coughing for so long already . God heal me !
It feels so terrible . Tomorrow not going to service . But will join them for west huddle at cck park. Tomorrow need to work at daddy's shop . Will this year be a great chinese new year ?
Hopefully bahs . Reunion Dinner already not good . Mummy is now so pissed off .
Cause she brought alot stuffs for the steamboat but cousin they all say going aunt's shop to eat the stuffs there . Then mummy buys so much yet they want come , don wan come .
Thats why she is pissed . Can't blame . Pray hard that everything will turns well bahs .
My health already pissed me off man .
But pray hard everything will be fine soon .

2009-01-18T03:03:00.000-08:00

Happy 1st month to all Ex-Bcians .
If we're still in a group , can celebrate lahs , but since we choose to end it , then no point lors .
But Every single one of you are still very important to me (:
I really love you people .
Every Sat , i wouldn't be lonely is because of you guys .
Thank you for loving me for who i am .
Everyone of you will remain in my heart forever .
Shazalind , Vanessa , Shihui and Melissa , I love you people <3

2009-01-17T05:52:00.000-08:00

Down with bad cough and bad sore throat .
Didn't update for long already . cause nothing interesting mahs .
Just go home then go home .
For what update . haha !
Went service today .
Was pissed off in the morning , cause i don know what to wear ! -.-
In the end , i come to a conclusion , wear t-shirt .
Haha . Reach-ed lot1 , went over to mac find vanessa & bernard .
Soon shazalind reached .
Take bus 190 , i fall asleep .
And when the driver make a turn , i nearly bang towards the window .
Then quickly use another hand to hold on .
Too tired cause of the medicine .
Today is a bad day lor .
throat is pain after that ):
After service went to meridien and eat .
Then Lion came over to say there is a garfield show tomorrow ! -.-
I promised her that i wouldn't mind if i can brighten people day .
Yah luh . After that slack there as they got potential shepherd meet .
walk around with sihui . She really cute lahs . haha !
After that we have our high tea at meridien .
Then travel to bugis with shazalind & vanessa (:
Accompany them to buy their stuffs .
Since they accompany me to drink milo ! LOL .
After bugis , take train back to lot1 as shazalind want to go Mondo buy her heels for new year .
On the train , sat on the floor and fall asleep .
So bad of shazalind , she took a photo of me sleeping and with her face and they keep laughing!
Laugh (:
have a nice trip sleeping there .
Really very tired cause of the medicine . Drowsy ):
I want to go for a sleep le ):
Tomorrow taking bersary . Very malu lor .
Need go stage ! ):
Haha . monday buying new year clothes with cousin le (:

2009-01-16T05:19:00.000-08:00

I'll update tomorrow lor , my daily reader ! (:
Not feeling well mahs .
with my sexy voice ! (:

2009-01-08T05:10:00.000-08:00

School life was alright , but kind of stress lohs .
As days pass , Chinese o'level is coming , prelim is on the way and N'level starts .
Can you imagine how scary it is ?
Remember when i was sec1 , althought there is conflicts but is really a fun year .
I remember i tell myself , sec4 still long way la . But now , a blink and i'm sec4 now .
Time past real fast lohs .
And as year goes , i get even mature .
I Started to allow emotion control me .
Even till now , i'm so sensitive even over friendship and solving certain problems .
How i wish i can allow time to stop la . But it wouldn't .
But i'm going to work super super hard for my chinese and math .
I want to get B3 for that .
Jiayou , people if you read this , pray for me (:
I'm going to do it lohs .
either rp or simei ite if i can't .
But the simei won't come to past .
Cause i'm going to sec 5 ! (:
Went to Np today .
So sian and the school facilities so old !
got no interest in this school .
Leave the school with jane at around 4plus .
Walk to the bukit timah market there take bus to yishun find lion (:
Do homework while she shepherd sheep .
After that take train back with her .
Had a nice talk with her .
Lion , you talk like you very stress like that .
Jiayou okay (:
God, i just want to commit lion into your hand , God i just pray god that as she entrust her future into your hands , God i pray that you will help her lord . There are certain things she think that is kind of impossible , God i pray that you will help her to believe miracles will happen .
What she have thought of , make it happen to past (:
She wants people to think that it's safe to entrust the children in her hand .
So God , see her hardwork and bless her lord . God i commit everything into your hand and we believe it will come to past (: In Jesus's name , Amen (:
Lion , feel free to ask me for a run on sunday , or even when you're free ok(:
I'm willing to run and i can also release my stress on running (:
And i can also go on diet !
Lion control your eating habbit . Don't eat fried foods (:
Go fast on that la (:
i can fast with you too . Jiayou okay ! (:
i'm with you lion <3
Anything can come talk to me although i'm younger than you but is not the age ok .
Must be open to one another (:
i'm your lion and also your sister . So ya lo .
loveyou lion (:

There's school tml , choir . i'm not feeling that sian already .
I must work hard !
God give me strength and wisdom ! (:

2009-01-02T01:48:00.000-08:00

Went to school today !
First day of school i today myself to be salt and light .
But in the end first day i'm caught for short skirt -.-
To me thats quite lame .
Cause i look like a guai kai as i'm bringing joyce's bag to school .
So innocent then catch me ):
And thats shows that i grew taller ! (:
i saw alot of my beloved ones today !
sherilyn , natalie , xiaoxuan , celia , hillary.
and some guys . But yongxiang was sent home ! no jokes .
But i've a new friend . Her name is sarah .
She was from a girls school transfer to our school .
Nice friend of course . she sitted right beside me (:
I need to buy a new skirt soon , if not monday not going to stay at school but will be at home .
HAHA ! (:
Went to bp after school for outreaching and went i was in the foodcourt , a person ask me which secondary i'm , i was about to answer sec3 , but i'm sec4 already .
I don't wish to answer cause it makes me stress .
As i'm taking N'level this year .
Looking at how i've grown from a *ahlian* in sec1 , so naughty until now i'm mature (:
I receive christ when i'm sec1 , passionate for lost souls with certain people .
Chionging for god together with a bunch of exciting people !
And when i'm sec1 , i have a bunch of goodfriends too (:
people like , cindy , weiwei , jolenetan , dacindy , joycetan , jes , hongkoon .
They are someone who i hang out with i laugh alot , play with them like a children .
They simply rocks my life .
then when i'm in sec2 , i went into a relationship and causes me to leave god ):
That's bad . And my life then was just normal lifestyle thats i love pampering by my bf , going out with him and hanging out with school friends . That's my life then .
Till 16thAug 2008 , i came back to know christ again ! (:
My life then was outreaching , going sat service and meeting and stuffs .
My life has been great cause god has been blessing me (:
But things that is bad was the friendship i have with those i mention that i knew in sec1 .
I really miss those times hanging out with them .
And for certain people , our friendship turns to very surface and we are not goodfriends anymore . Very sad lahs .
I miss those friendship between us .
Really , the way you treasure me and stuffs , but is different now .
Or is because that time i'm a new believer thats why you treat me so good ?
Sighh lahs .
Now 2009 started , life ain't good to me .
I'm worried and sad about many things in life .
Getting much much stress in what am i doing .
I'm thinking much more now .
Thinking that serving god why am i so burden ?
Why am i so sad ?
N'level is coming . I know this is part and parcel of life .
And when i gets older , people around me gets older as well .
They have to work and stuffs .
And due to our age gap , i think sooner or later , you will forget i exist in your life .
You will be busy working and our friendship will get even worst lahs .
So i really hope time stop and i don't have to face the reality .
I tell you , when i am walking home , i'm thinking will i face those problem when i'm not doing what am i doing ?
I really want to maintain the friendship .
But what can i do ? ):
People if you read this , i really want to tell you that you're truly treasured by me .
Really , i would rather lose away something and have the good friendship with certain people .
Just like i would rather gave away anything but i won't trade jesus away .
So people out there who knows that i really treasure you all , please be sure that i really love love love youu people ! (:

2009-01-01T05:06:00.000-08:00

Went to joyce house ytd as i miss her lah . haha !
Went to help her copy down title for sermon and she cool maggie for me as i'm hungry .
thanks for the mr bean and the mr bean that food (:
around 7 plus went to shihui house and went marina for countdown with vanessa and shihui's family member .
had fun in the lorry and reached home around 2 .
Waited for cousin to reach home and go yew tee buy food as i'm hungry .
2008 has come to the end ! (:
although i came back to god on 16aug this year .
But from that day onwards , god is real to me .
He always bless me through people around me .
Whenever i need god , he's there comforting me .
in this period of time , conflicts happen the most .
between me and the people i love .
But i really want to take this time to thank god for certain people .
my post will be long , please be patient (: haha

GINA:
although you have been my shepherd not long , conflicts happen between us .
but i really want to say thank you for growing me to become more mature .
Forgiving me whenever i did things wrong .
thank you for being patient at me even sometimes i always complain to you .
i really want to thank god for you (:

TINGHUI:
hey elijah , In this period of time , We're once close and also we quarell alot . We've different intrest but i still want to thank god that some time no matter what i do , you're still being so good to talk nicely to me . Thank god for you .

JOYCE:
Lion ! i really want to thank god for you ley ! Really . Did you realise i'm always having
conflicts with you in december ? I'm sorry that sometimes my words seem harsh .
i'm always thinking that i'm not good enough to be your friend and stuffs .
But still you still love me like your sister . You always dote me and cook for me when i'm hungry. Although sometime i doubt that you don't really treasure me but thanks for assuring me that i'm important in your life . Thanks for being there for me to listen to me whenever i'm sad or even listening to my jokes . Thanks for making 2008 a good one for me (: i really love you lion .

EX -BC-IANS
Although we have been BC for not long . since camp till that day . But i really treasure everyone of your deep down in my heart . Thanks for making my day with you all a fun and memorable one . Although BC is ended but all of your are important in my heart .

ALL OF MY SCHOOL MATES:
I have been classmates with certain people for 3years . Conflicts between us start and end ! (: Thanks for being there for me . thanks for making my school day fun . i really treasure you all very much (:

THANK GOD FOR MAKING 2008 A GOOD ONE WITH A BUNCH OF GOOD FRIENDS WITH ME ! (:
I'M LOOKING FORWARD FOR A EVEN BLESS YEAR AHEAD ! (:

2008-12-30T07:55:00.000-08:00

We are officially walking our own ways now ):
Hey people , i'm going to miss you all real badly .
The fun times being Dong fang xiang , yuan daying , wu ji zun , du fei .
It is all those memories . hanging out together eating yami yoghurt .
wearing the same dress code .
And now , everything is going to come to the end .
i really appreciate every single one of you .
please take good care of yourself in whatever you are doing .
Now , i really don know who can i look for already ):
i'm lost . God please help me ):
I really feel so so so hurt now .
Tears just keep flowing down already .
I really got no words to describe how i feel .

2008-12-30T05:25:00.000-08:00

29.12.08
Went out with jessica , szehwee and weixuan .
Went to lot1 to eat and off to town to shop .
brought a bag (:
Not bad lahs , quite nice .
after that actually intend to go jp eat dinner there with family .
we went up the bus then they say go tiong bahru eat !
LOL luhs . alight immediately and take another bus to redhill then take mrt after that .
Walk about and brought a ''hello bread'' plaster .
haha ! then joyce ask me go over to harbourfront to accompany her for dinner along with her girls .
Take mrt there and have a drink and listen to their jokes and took train home with joyce .
She take with me till yewtee ley . *grins*
I'm touch no worries (:
30.12.08
Went out with liyan to amk.
She look for job while i want to buy my school shoe .
saw joyce and her cls at pepper lunch .
after that went home at around 8plus (:
School reopening in 3days time .
Pray that i'll pay attention in class and do well for N'level (:

2008-12-28T06:01:00.000-08:00

Something very very bad happen today .
But is good as well .
cause through this bad experience , i learn much more .
i learn to rely on god even more , and also when my mum wants to whack me , i didn't defend is because she has the authority of my life .
Just like my shepherd , leader and even people who are spiritually higher than me , they have the authority as well .
I must treat them just like how i treat my mom .
Not to go against them but submit to them and be obedience to support them even in the bad times .
Don't you think all i say is link ?
It's a very simple thing but i didn't even realise and submit .
I don't there to go against my mom as she is my mom . in conclusion , it is a authority .
Thats why luhs .
i shouldn't be so rebellous again .
And if i didn't go back to god , in those moment , who is there for me ?
When i was about to be chase out of the house , if i didn't go back to god , where can i find such a good lion to allow me to go her house ? (: I can't help but to give thanks to god .
God is good ! (:
people out there who don't know god , let me tell you la .
Nothing is better than god .
When you have no one with you , god is with you .
i can even use my life as a guarentee .
He is always there ! (:
Through this incident , i tend to rely on god even more .
And i can't help to give thanks to god !
THANK YOU GOD ! (:
And now , my mom is not angry at me already .
praise god ! (:
i'll be a salt and light at home to show that is christ who change me (:
And i'll be a salt and light at school as well (:
Jesus help me to be more like you (:

2008-12-27T06:23:00.000-08:00

Went to service today .
Nothing to do luh today !
No meeting no anything . But chitchatted at meridien with monkey's owner which is dewen ! [:
enjoy talking to him . he talk with sense . haha . i learn that i cannot judge things base on my perspective . i cannot only revolve in my world only [:
i must grow ! i want to do things just for christ . cause only what done in christ will last (:
Ard 5pm , went to istana then randomly took photos with BC & weixian (:
Then went over to plaza singapura to walk about .
End up when to starbucks to sit and chitchatted there and going online .
till going 8 then take train back with vanessa (:
photos will be posted when vanessa done edicting .

After thinking and stuffs , i shall not bother what people thinks and care about me .
If they think i didn't do well , i shall do even better with no complaining .
Cause everything is for God and not you guys .
Since god place you as my shepherd , you guys as my caregroup member , i shall take it and submit well . God sees my effort will do (:

i don't know how to express in words how i feel now :/
Grow grow grow !
i really hope not i will only look for you but you look for me as well .
i know you try , i feel it .
sighh ! i shall not want people to please me . i'll do something as well [:
Don't stop me from having a goodfriend will do (:

2008-12-25T08:00:00.000-08:00

Shazalind & Jiahui (:
Dfx & Ydy .

i would want people to love me like how i love them (:

i'll upload me and vanessa when she done edicting .
And , lion if you read this , take photo with me soon !
you're the only one i haven't take photo with ! ):
Come look for me okay !
cause is impossible i look for you , you're busy ! (:

2008-12-25T03:07:00.000-08:00

22.12.08
Went to outreach in the afternoon and take bus to boonlay to meet up with cousin as we got dinner afterwards .
Went to joyce's house to ask from her a plaster as she stay around there . around 7.15 quickly walk to mrt station to rush to dinner .
eat and talk till 10plus going 11 , mummy and brother went up to aunt house to gamble and cousin go for bbq .
left me alone , so i'm smart enough to call joyce whether can go her house .
she allowed [: took cab with Jessica as she going bf house .
she pay the cabfair . hahaha !
But then through this journey i learn a lesson lah !
i saw a block 660 then i ask the uncle to allow me to alight .
But then the place i alight is for 660-662 only !
she stay at 663 .
then i lost my way . so stupid !
walk and find my way , but is all building and trees and playground .
called joyce to tell her i lost my way ! -.-
then she wanted to come find me but praise god .
in the end , i saw a road and her house is just opposite [:
stay at her house till tomorrow morning and take train with her .
23.12.08
Reached home , sleep till 11 plus and intend to go outreach but outreach cancel .
Went lot1 with cousin to buy refill for pen .
and went to lot1 with mother also .
Went home wrote cards as tml will be christmas service !
it's going to be fun ! [:
24.12.08
wake up prepare and go jurong for christmas service at Rock auditorium .
Pass around cards to one another , and gifts too [:
I love all the BC-ians [:
people who give me cards and gifts are : shazalind , vanessa , jes , cindyho , melissa , joyce , gina , tinghui , tingyi , seokxian .
Thanks for the cookies , pencil case and everything.
after Rock auditorium , went to shannon's house to have west party .
have fun there . taking photos and riding bicycle .
went to eat supper after that . reach home 1 plus .
anyway , thanks joyce for accompanying me on the phone till i reach home [:
photos will upload soon ! [:

2008-12-21T19:37:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 1st year birthday to you ! My spiritual buddy : vanessa [:
okay lahs . must jiayou okay , perservere till the end with all the BC members [:
hey , want to thank God for you for accompany me and stuffs [:
i really love you deep down in my heart [:
anything can just text me or call me , i'll promise to reply your sms and answer your call .
i'll be there for you just as Jesus is always with you .
sorry is abit late just that i never get to use computer yesterday ):
Jiayou okay Wu ji zun ! [:

2008-12-20T07:48:00.000-08:00

Sorry about the post just now as it is abit fustrated .
But after doing qt and stuffs , i calm myself down already .
I'm not going to focus other things except to reap the harvest .
God pour down your blessings upon westb . help us to grow more .
Jesus be with me in all things .
No ones understand me more than you understand me .
Whenever i'm alone , Jesus you are the one being with me all times .
Assuring me that i'm not alone .
God thank you for everything .
Thank you for those people who listen to me in this period .
Conflicts happen , misunderstanding happen , but Jesus in all things you remain the same .
I really love you deep down in my heart .
Jesus , i love you , i really love you .
no words can express how i feel now .
Feeling so lost at first and being assure that i'm not alone .
Those feeling really feels great .
Lastly , Jesus pour down this harvest .
Westb going to reap it together .
Amen .

2008-12-20T06:52:00.000-08:00

went service today .
Today totally sucky lahs !
Seriously , went to harverster meet today , no teaching but is like talking and stuffs .
We want to reap the harvert .
God please help me . Focus on the important things first .
I'm bursting soon ! Really , i want to cry already .
Went to talk to joyce .
But things goes worse ! i need encouragement lah people .
From God and from you guys .
I'm breaking down soon ):
Please , i account to you , waste message ?!
please luh ! care about my feelings please ?
what you want me to do ?
please everyone in the caregroup uhs ?
i already keep meeting her to go out and stuffs already okay .
What you expect ?
So i'm the blame of her salvation lahs ?
i love her okay .
More than how you all treasure her .
God please help me .
It is your test for us about bonding together .
i want to overcome .
But as i take the innitiative , please help them to put themselves into my shoe .
i wouldn't want this to happen either .
Jesus , help me ):

2008-12-19T00:31:00.000-08:00

Went to lot1 , just came back .
some things just happen and it there's many things came pass my mind .
Thank God that i reached home , no one at home .
i need some time to cool down .
walk to my room , look at babylion and tears just flow down my cheeks .
questions came pass my mind .
my definition of friends and how friends is important to me ?
they are really very important .
if i found someone who i truly care for and talk to ,
i would expect things goes another way round .
Means to them , i'm important too .
Sometimes , i really think so .
but sometimes not .
so friends may not be always there for you .
when they need me , i promise i'll be there .
what if i need them ?
i private this blog , so many don't read this .
Don't give me comment about this post please .
i know i'm foolish to cry over such matters , but do you know without friend , my life is not complete. just like without God , my life won't be good too .
I'm angry , really angry .
i don't want to be spear tire .
you seems so happy , i shall not bother you for long .
i keep silent , cause i got nothing to answer you back .
i don't want to talk and quarells begin .
i don't want to be angry and shout back to you .
i don't want to be too angry and cried .
it'll sounds very lame . i don't want .
i just want to know am i a good friend of yours ?
if yes , can you shows me that i'm ?

2008-12-17T20:03:00.000-08:00

CHILDHOOD ! looks retardedd !

BELOVED WESTB =D

YUAN DAYING , DONG FANG XIANG & WU JIZUN

I'LL live to carry your compassion ! [:

2008-12-16T22:05:00.000-08:00

I'M BACK FROM HEROES CAMP !
HAHA ! [:
i had a great fun in this camp!
hmms , shall show you how awesome is this campp!
DAY1
meetup at woodland , west to mac with our bags and stuffs .
took bus 901 , is very pack by almost all y-hoppies ! [: at first i'm worrying about camp is fun anot , but overall is superfun ! [:
Reach there , have Games , and i'm in Belt2 !
Games was funny .
And they jokes alot lah! haha
after games , washup and i went to my room!
i have a bed and i don't need to share with people ! haha
And have dinner and is opening ceremony !
Praise and worship after that and is teaching time . Talk about Moses ! ''Humility''
i learn that When God choose you , means is you . Don't doubt that you can't do it .
you can ! [:
sleep at 1plus , is early right ? [:
HAHA !
DAY2
wake up for breakfast and have quiet time !
back pain ! weixian say i didn't change my position . haha !
i sleep at a snail ! haha
that's why i feel painful . haha
teaching after that .
hmms , talk about David ! '' Loyalty''
i learn that we must build one another up spiritually .
forgive people easily [:
i love everyone is WestB !
after that got minilution.
all of us dress like in childhood .
so retarded !!
but the event is fun ! [:
have shepherd appreciation .
all of us appreciate our leader !
nearly cry as it is really a touching scene !
have teaching after that .
we learn about abraham . ''Faith''
we need to step out of our comfort zone .
we need look things through spiritual but not natural [:
Day3
had games , but totally not fun at all , water games and stuffs . BORINGG !
but still i will give applause to Games master ! [:
hide and hide , cause i don wan to get wet !
then saw joycee ! walk with her along with tinghui and tingyi .
she can help me block ! haha !
after that went back to the hall . games ended . like finally lahs .
united and defeat the devil [:
went back to bathe and wear p.e shirt .
to go for immeasurable .
had teaching first , then extended prayer meet
one word to describe : awesomee .
i feel burden for people once again .
which is my camp objective .
cried and prayed for aes .
i really feel very burden [:
lets jiayou !
didn't sleep on the 3rd day !
walk around with joycee ! and go to her girls room and then off to hall to play captain ball !
let me tell you , it's really fun .
As it turns out like hotshot !
i'm yuan daying , shazalind is dong fang xiang , vanessa is wu ji zun , shihui is dufei and my dearest joyce is ''W'' . haha . funny right ?
whole thing is hillarious . i joke around lahs . haha
then play badminton with jes , wanting and eugene !
DAY4
is time to go home already .
overall , i'm going to say that i love this campp .
really , at first i thought is boring , but it turns out fun .
bonding with one another , taking photos , jokes and laughs .
i really love WESTB ! [:
i'm going to treasure every single one of them !
give applause to TINGTING for leading this group , and all the wonderful CLS .
went home and sleep almost throughout .
but wake up to eatt . hahaha
overall , camp is greattt !!

2008-12-12T06:36:00.000-08:00

I'm off for camp for 4days , 3 nights .
MISS ME PEOPLE !
I'll update when i'm back .
will be a good post de [:
cause i will be renew again [:
hope i can sleep easily there .
help me lord [:

2008-12-11T05:00:00.001-08:00

Nothing much happen today .
Stay at home whole day .

sometimes , i really hope there is a restructuring .
i'm not bad or what .
but somewhere somehow i think that i really find hard communicating with you .
i don't even feel like meeting you .
Not that i don't want go shepherding .
just that i feel that when you ask me '' got anything to tell me ''
i don't know what to repy
sharing to you takes me many courage .
I just know what what to do .
Whatever i say , neither you will talk against me , i can't think of what you will do ? help me ?
never once you got luhs ):
i really feel so weird meeting you , even talking to you about my life .
Really weirddd .

heroes camp is coming .
i want to hit my camp objective [:

2008-12-10T04:18:00.000-08:00

Was asked to do my ah dear Vera (:

You can't send this to the person who sent you.
Continue this by sending to 8 people.
Send this to 8 people:
1. Celia Vulgar <3
2.Sherilyn suenkuay !
3.anyone.
4.anyone
5.anyone
6.anyone
7.anyone
8.anyone .
What have you been doing recently?
- prepare for camp .
2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
- No
3. What happened at 10am today?
- at joyce's house watching tv
4. When did you last cry?
- i don't cry recently . not emo ! [:
5. Believe in fate/destiny?
- In the begining i believe , now i don't already [:
6. What do you want in your life now?
- Walk right with God [:
7. Do you carry a umbrella when it rains or just put up ur hood?
- umbrella ? sometimes lor [:
8. Whats your favourite thing to have on ur bed?
- My BabyLion ! <3
9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
- p.e shorts [:
10. Whats the nicest thing in your inbox?
- All sms are nice to me [:
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
- I wouldn't want to step into any relationship [:
12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
-No .
13. What was the last movie you caught?
- Not so sure ? forget already . heh !
14. What are you proud of?
- ?! 15. What does your oldest text msg in your inbox says?
- idk !
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
- I do't sang out loud recently . And i forget already [:
17. Do you have any nicknames?
- MANY ! eg . xiaolion , monkey , and even some ugly nicknames . some people will know (:
18. What does your last text msg says?
- Asking joyce what handphone line she using .

Went to Joyce's house overnight
. eat and eat , very full .
if i would want to use words to describe myself , i will choose , rebellous , disobedience and stubborn .
that's bad ! i never take her for granted lor .
i really treasure this friend of mine lor .
But i don't like all those names you all called me ! ):
~~lion~~ i really hope you can help me lor .
but in the end , you say me lor . never help meee ):
Very sad you knowww ):
Sighhhh !

2008-12-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

Went to pula ubin today .
Weather ain't good .
it's really super cold . trust me , it's like staying at genting .
haha ! when the wind blow , i'm freezing !
pathetic luhs . bring jacket also not convenience .
Wake up super early today .
have to meet at tampinese 10am .
so some west people meet up ast 8.10am
but many people was late including me .
But reach-ed there also waited for this and that .
it was raining whole day lah ! ):
make me feel so dirty .
cause we're playing amazing race there .
after that we went to a seafood restuarant.
we paid $10 dollars each .
my table got 9people .
so total 90bucks .
my table got yongmei , tinghui , tingyi , jency , mingyee , gina , zhengkai and a guy . including me .
trust me , i think this table noisiest.
we order prawn , 2 types of vegetable , fish , meat , prawn egg , squids .
niceee righttt ? hahah ! what also got . muahahaha^^
we play and laugh , is very memorable ^^
i think most memorable is eating together in the table luhs .
took bus back from pula ubin (:
went to take bus 29 and reach tampinese to tranfer to bus 168 to woodland .
leave with tinghui and tingyi .
we talk and i slept throughout the journey back to woodland .
i'm really very tired Zzz !
tomorrow will be having caregroup .
i think i'm sick lor . by that stupid fluu !
somemore camp is comingggg !
God really heal mee ! (:
i want to thank God for everything that he bless me this week (:

2008-12-05T04:59:00.000-08:00

VULGAR EDICTEDDD FOR MEEE ! =D

MY VULGAR AND MEEEE !
I REALLY LOVEEE HER <3
Firstly , wanna give thanks to my dearest vulgar <3
thanks for changing the skin for me !
no worries , i like it alot [:
I really miss many of my friends !
when to work today , came home saw sherilyn !
it've been long since i saw sherilyn and natalie !
i miss them man !
anyway , sorry that sometimes i can't join you all for some outing .
example : this coming monday . sorry ya ? as i'm kind of busy doing some church stuffs.
hmm . after Word for life , i learn that we must place the right priority .
yups , it's kind of hard but we must look at the bigger picture ^^
i really agree that friend is very important .
but when i'm free , i will go find you all de [:
HEROES camp is coming !
i'm going to enjoy myself there and when i get home , i'm renew once again .
monday is coming too ! PULAR UBIN !
pray that weather will be fine that day [:
God bless us ^^
this week is not very pack , but i'm sick again .
my voice is going to turn sexy . muahahah !
flu is getting much more serious already .
as for cough i think it turns better abit .
sore throat not as bad as flu already .
today a little incident happen that shows me that we cannot live by ourself .
cause human's strength cannot be better than God's strength .
sometimes , i really need to depend on God cause i think i cannot depend on myself .
and really listening to God but not avoiding .
yeahs . treasure the people around me is always i want to do [:
there's really many many important people i really wanna to give thanks too .
hmm , mingyee , celia , tinghui , tingyi , joyce , gina , jes ...... and still goes on .
ya , they are really important to me =D
who brings me joy and see me growing in christ .
really thank God for them [:

2008-12-03T06:55:00.000-08:00

Wake up kind of early today !
is super duper hot !
really , is like hell lahs . Can't stand the weather recently ! -.-
When for Word for life today . although is the 3rd lesson which is last lesson , i still learn alot .
was so cold there . flu & sorethroat .
throat feels terrible ! ):
word for life i learn that , being available for the sheep that God place under you .
although is kind of basic but i learn everything anew again [:
be that person that your sheep share their emotion , when they need you , being there [:
yeah [:
i'm fasting from MEAT !
means i'm vegetarian from now to camp ! [:

my camp objective will be :
having the passion for people , going all out and not find excuses !
God will speak a word in my heart!

i'm going to pular ubin on monday !
west training ! [:
it'll going to be fun man ! [:
pray that Sat , hiukee will be coming and all those uncomfirm visitors ! hahah ! [:
bless man ! [:
and God , heal me ! [:

2008-12-02T04:56:00.000-08:00

it've been long time since i updated by blog .
many things happened in between .
talk things out , and things still goes well :D
although sat still seems kind of weird , but don worry , i'm fine already .
thanks to ''someone'' who encourage me to talk things out
yeah . things goes better already .
didn't went for WFL for 2times , okay i know that i'm in wrong .
first time for not going is because on that day , i'm having a settling stuffs with my goodfriend , and kind of moodless after that . second time , meet up with cousin . sorry . really
i promise i will be going on wednesday .
NEXT MONDAY WILL BE GOING FOR WEST TRAINING AT PULAR UBIN!
i'm super excited ! wohoo !
so fun lah . ohmy !
1stdec2008
okay . meet up with cousin , went to fareast , brought fake nails with nice pattern to make my nails longer .
but didn't use long , intend to buy something looks even better :D
then brought a t-shirt . haha .
tinghui & tingyi , i brought the shirt already . wear on sat show you !
hmms . meetup with joyce at cityhall to train back together .
have some talks with her . time flys , reached home at 10plus .
2nd dec2008
went to caregroup today .
leading chairing and holycom .
wenyi and jinglin turn up until testimonies and they need go home as going out parent .
heroes camp is coming [:
pray that i'll feel enthu for it .
went to have dinner with tinghui .
have a nice chat with her .
my elijah ley ! [:
hahah ! okay , i do miss many of my schoolmates . ):
my mood is kind of not bad recently .
but , my dad sprain his back yesterday .
for me , i think is kind of serious . really , the back is really very not straight .
he can't see the doctor as the doctor went oversea .
God i just pray that you will heal my dad .
those pain is really hard to bear .
i see i already feel so heartpain .
father heal him lord .
i believe in faith , in jesus name , amen .
i know as a shepherd of mine , i never share to you , you will feel kind of sad .
sometimes , i really think that when i talk to you , you didn't give me the advise i want .
so i went to share to someone intead .
i'm really sorry .
i just think that the way you think things is totally different from meee .
so ya luh . if can i will try talking to you .

2008-11-27T07:04:00.000-08:00

At first i really think that we can never be friends back again de .
At first don't intend to talk about the problem with you .
But someone advise me to , and i'll listen .
after talking with you , i feel kind of better .
ya . i admit that i think that your good friend is some other around you .
no matter how i tried to be a good friend with you , seems kind of hard .
i really miss alot people .
i miss the goodfriends , i miss them .
i know that no point dwelling on it .
i choose to continue to be good friends again .
Let's see how it goes bahs .

hotshot is nice [:
it teaches me alot of things man .
i mean not biblical things , but things that link to life [:
i feel very touch to see luo zhi xiang to sacrifice for his love's one .
can even sacrifice his life .
oh man , thats so cool !
went for care group today , and it's GINATAY'S BIRTHDAY !
happy birthday to you [ :
basically , wanna thank God for placing you in my lfie [:
happy birthday to you ! [:
anyway , we brought donut , subway cookies for her !
she is touch ok . cause she is in love with subway ! haha !
anyway , today is 1 of my friend birthday too .
she is grace and joyce .
they are twins . ohya . i think they won't see this . but just want to wish them [:
cause my blog is private . * laughs*
ok ! camp is around the corner ?
can i still have the desperation heart . oh please .
i want the song ! luo zhi xiang de . '' cause i believe ''
it's nice ! [:

2008-11-24T04:15:00.000-08:00

23.11.08
Went to work and leave at 10plus . kind of early , thats why no pay ):
nevermind , i don't mind . cause i'm really tired .
went to meet joyce as she pass me time table .
after that go her house and exercise with her , as she say since you have to idea on going where then i will decide for you . ( that's evil ! )
Went to jurong point to buy math textbook and she buy her printer ink . reach-ed her house and weather seems bad .
But thank God it didn't rain .
but it has been long since i went for a run .
seriously , it's real tired ( Zzz ! )
i don't know how long we run , but for me is like kind of long .
joyce if you see this , i got potential to run with you right . can follow your beat in running ley ! :D
after that they at her house to do time table and watch channel 8 ! [:
i think is not that nice lor . i prefer hongkong show ! Rocks okay ! [:
and i realise something yesterday ! wahahas !
~~joyce loves ahyoyo when she is young !~~ *grins *
she will kills me if she is able to read it . LOL ! but too bad it is small .
stay at her house to overnight as it is kind of late , and i'm lazy to go home .
i realise her dad and mum is not that scary already [:

24.11.08
wake up 7 from joyce house . very early ! i'm very tired . somemore going sentosa with hillary and xiaoxuan .
Went home buy something to eat and drink ice milo [:
watch tv and fall asleep . ohmy .
i think school reopen it will be jialat luhs . overslept ?!
hmm , joyce call me to ask me wake up as i need to meet hillary & co .
But in the end , i still fall asleep again .
until when hillary reach-ed lot1 , i just wake up .
sorry ! today wasn't in a good mood .
maybe is because i'm too tired and think of many things .
after that meet joyce at woodland for dinner after going sentosa .
fall asleep at train .
meet joyce didn't talk much . i apologise for that ):

i've been thinking on the trip home . nearly ~~cried~~
sometimes , i think i'm kind of selfish that i'll remember God when i'm feeling lonely .
but the fact is that he's always there .
sometimes i put friends then putting God in first priority .
sometimes i think that if there is a choice , i really don wan friend .
but without friend , i'm kind of lonely .
sometimes , i think that i'm kind of extra .
our friendship is really surface . all along , you're someone that i share my problems too .
and , my secrets is always kept by you .
whenever i need someone to cry out my sorrow , you will always be there .
actually , didn't you realise always i'm the one who look for you ?
i think i've been trouble you too much already .
maybe i should't bahs . i'm sorry ):
i really miss alot of people . sometimes , i really want to ask myself , do i really know what is joy ?
am i really those happy girl that smiles whenever she saw her friends and going to service ?
i know al this is kind of lame , but i really do cares . sorry .

2008-11-20T07:31:00.000-08:00

Wake up at 12 plus today .
i really enjoy the sleep today , no interuption .
when for shepherding . kind of slack today .
after that went for youth shepherd's meet .
pastor shirley life story is kind of interesting . haha !
yeah . i love alot today .
1. being faithful to what God has given me .
2. love people like how God does .
3. being more like jesus
yeah . i know is kind of common , but reminding myself lor [:
after that went to eat with zhengkai and his guys and vanessa , christine , gina [:
after that took bus back with them .
sathya is full of jokes man .
entertain us in the bus . haha
tomorrow should i go choir ? i think i'm going to overslept lor .
tomorrow is peter trong for harverster [:
i will set my heart to learn something new tml ! [:
i'm going to plan my week soon .
as there is something cool going to happen by end december ! < :
heroes camp is coming .
hopefully it'll be fun ? i'm not alone !

2008-11-19T06:40:00.000-08:00

Went for caregroup today .
reach-ed there than rain ! Then water flow-ed and no place for cg.
End up , we're playing in the rain !
oh gosh . it've been long since i play in the rain luh !
childhood okay ! haha ! okay . in the end went bp to dry ourself and went garden plaza to continue holy com and sharing God's blessings upon us [:
tomorrow is shepherd's meet already , and meet gina for shepherding .
hmm , fruitful day [:
around , 5.30 meet up with wanling strawberry , priscillia , alvin daddy !
it has been long since i hang out with them .
especially daddy ! but he's more cool already .
smile to his friend but not his daughter . Tsk !
Daddy say don't need so many friend deh . can be mafan also . haha
half agree . but will feel lonely too mah .
he say we are not his friend , but daughter . haha
me and wanling high-five ! haha .
hmm . Daddy must meet us soon [:
okay . just not play too much .
next year n'level already .
i want to go poly ! ):
study hard ! i will and i don't want to disappoint people .
jiayou ! [:
i just serve God whole heartedly . but not , half hearted .
just pray and continue to have the heart for quiet time (:

2008-11-18T06:33:00.000-08:00

Sometimes , i really miss those times when i'm in sec1 .
the first year i came to know christ .
The people i first know is the best even till now .
until now , when i came across talking to them , i really hope time will go back to the time playing with them .
i miss having lunch at starhub , after that play together .
oh man . this is all memories .
i really do miss them alot .
miss serving the lord with them .
in all the camp i went , Encounter is the best man .
i don't know this time round how's camp , but really hope i can enjoy and learn something new there .
If a fairy would want to grant me 3 wishes , i would want time to go back to encounter camp , and time stop there . second , i would want to feel even closer with people in church , having a family feeling . thirdly , i would want to serve the lord and bring many people to come to church .
Deep down in my heart , i really miss lor .
i can only think but won't happen again .
today i want to update about my thoughts .

2008-11-16T06:22:00.000-08:00

Went to work today [:
chit-chatted with jessica cousin & simin cousin .
decided to go sentosa after my work as it's cousin outing day .
Tomorrow and tuesday have to work as they say they wash market will have many people [:
Actually meeting Gina tml as she got important things to say .
BUt decided to meet on tuesday after caregroup .
This week is a busy week for me . everything is pack .
i think i'm happy lor .
i won't be wasting my week [:
thursday will be having shepherd's meet at nexus .
And Friday have a peter throng 's evangelism workshop at america room .
Seems cool lor . haha .
i bet i'm gonna learn something new ! [:
Hmmms . Praying hard that there will be more and more converts from Aes .
Bless me lord ! [:
I want to grow more in every area of my life [:
Hmm , i think i really think thru last night already .
i want to perservere man !
God continue to help me grow more and being strong and biblical [:

2008-11-15T07:19:00.000-08:00

Went to service today .
was late for service as i waited for amanda .
Service today was kind of like science lesson to prove How great is our God .
hmm . paid camp fees today .
at first was kind of ~~reluctant~~ .
But after that i know that i need to grow and camp can help me grow stronger .
had a talk with joyce on the phone just now .
indeed she ask me to ask myself who is God to me ?
God is a friend of mine , a father of mine , God is everything to me .
Why am i doubting him yet he always bless me ?
How can i forget the grace he had for me .
forgiving my wrongs yet continue to love me .
Really hope that from now i will start everything anew .
And continue to have the passion for God .
Continue to place God in first priority .
If God can bless people in the bible , do miracles in the bible , i believe in this life time he can do something in me .
I don't want to lead life with no purpose .
i want to concern about my spiritual life .
i don't want myself to reach that time when i don't even care about my spiritual life .
Who will be there if there is crisis and will worthy friend still be there ?
i don't know .
But God you will be there for me right ? [:
you will continue to love me right ? [:
you will never leave me alone right ? [:
cause in the bible you said that '' never will i leave you , never will i forsake you ''
God i take your word [:
Praying hard that this camp , i will come to learn but not come here to worrying about being alone.
As God say , i'm not alone .
God continue to prove me that you love me .
my friends out there who want to help me to grow , i want to say that i will put in effort [:

2008-11-14T06:08:00.000-08:00

woke up 7plus as i'm not feeling well .
vommited 6 times and really feeling terrible .
Went to see a doctor to have a injection to recover faster .
rest at home , till 2 and go lot1 for caregroup .
gina thanks for the drink [:
although never drink alot , but i do appreaciate it [:
went home after that , watch 花样少男少女.
the show is kinda interesting !
吴尊 is handsome [:
i'm addicted to taiwan show .
guys there are real handsome kay .
But it's like fairytales . Not really will happen in real life .
Now i'm feeling much better already . Hopefully tomorrow i'll recover [:
will be meeting up cindyho on tuesday , meet alvin daddy with wanling soon !
gotta catch up with them [:

i know that advices are good for me .
you help me and i need to put in effort .
yah . effort is not that easy .
maybe you are right .
friendship between us is just surface only .
i didn't share deep with you .
But i'll from today onwards .
friends isn't much that will be there for me .
i really do miss 3yrs ago , serving the lord with 2 of my friends .
things won't be the same again .
not to look back at the past and move forward .
i want to grow . but i want to enjoy my life too .
God help me

2008-11-12T05:59:00.000-08:00

went to choir today !
is kinda fun .
no intructor but ms tiu is there to help us .
wow . she can be intructor lor . good ! [:
after that went to jurong point with hillary and xiaoxuan .
it's a good outing .
have a great talk with them . talk everything about my life .
sometimes i think that truefriend doesn't mean come from church but i believe truefriend can come from school too .
i really thank God for people like , xiaoxuan , hillary , wanling , celia , sherilyn , natalie , sining , zhiyun .
all those people are those who i have fun with .
chitchatting happily .
i really find joy in them .
but i know that joy comes from God .

There is no one i can share problem with .
i feel so lonely . still the extent i feel pathetic .
even talking to _____ , tears is flowing down .
i really feel so .....
sighhh ! ):
i know sometimes i enjoy being with you all .
but sometimes i don't get the interest you all like .
i really don't know .

anyway , joyce thanks for talking to me .
thanks for listening to my problem .
thanks for being there .
i really appreciate it .
thank you [:
you say you will be there for me de hor !
i'll always remember {:

2008-11-09T05:45:00.000-08:00

few days never update blogg le .
today went for carnival .
things goes quite well .
我不想看到你 . 回忆会突然想起 ):
i not sure what i really want .
I'll always remember the love given by you . everlasting love . thank you God .
i promise that i wonte leave like the past .
help me to stand firm .
hmm . chit chatted with strawberry .
talk alot thing . meet her on tuesday ! {:
hope vulgar can tag along . hmm .
carnival we sell things like pasa malam .
herbal egg , muahchee , chocolate e claire .
haha !hmm . got alot things i want to say .
deep down in my heart . many things is unwilling .
i'm really sorry for some people .
i don wan things to go back to the past .
i'll regret one day .
but seriously i think i'm lacking of love .
sigh ! ):
i don know why i will doubt many things .
will i going to fall back ?
ohgosh . no please .
meeting strawberry on tuesday {:
so long neve go out with her ler {:
miss her la . {:
alright . tml going out again with cousin .
monday will always be the day i enjoy alot .
haha !
ok . shall not update much .
i perm my hair and cut my fringe . haha!

2008-11-01T08:01:00.000-07:00

Today went to service {:
along with sining and odilia {:
praise God sining is converted !
Heaven is rejoycing .
father i just want to take this time to pray for this new believer of ours .
God although she is already sec4 but God i pray that she will bring more sec1 and sec2 to come and know you .
God i pray that you'll protect her and show her the love to the max .
father i pray that you will bless her result for N'level .
help her to score well and glorified your name .
God i commit this sister onto your hand .
bless her greatly .
in jesus name , amen .

recently , i'm in a good mood .
i always feel happy even though is really boring , but the feeling inside my heart is really very happy . praise God that my camp form is signed and my my pass me the money and ask dad to pass back to her the money , and i doesn't need to pay a cent .
praise God {:
God there is no word to express my thanks giving to you .
i really thank you for the wonderful love , the new sister of ours , the blessings you bless me .
thank you father .
i love you !

if there is someone i want to give thanks to , it will always be jesus .
if i want to ask who is there for me when i need someone the most , it will always be jesus .
if i break down and cry , who is there to comfort me , it will always be jesus .
thank you jesus for being for cheer leader to give me encouragement .
thank you for choosing me and have such a wonderful friends , family members .
the friends who is there to encourage me , celebrate my birthday for me , being my listening ears . thank you if you are the one who did one of this or everything .
i truly love you and truly want to say thankyou to you ! *hug*

THANK YOU JESUS FOR EVERYTHING !

2008-10-31T07:41:00.000-07:00

went to caregroup today .
i nearly overslept . Thanks joyce for calling me up {:
you rocks lah ! haha !
amanda turn up for caregroup today ! {:
after that went to sent tingyi off to school as she got leadership training camp .
take good care sister .
tinghui miss you la . haha !
tinghui i know many things happen in your family .
But is all the problems that will be gone one day .
is all about satan .
seriously , satan can you just get out of my life .
get out . Don't be so irritating la you ! Argh !
today got shepherding too !
tml there is service !
heroes camp is coming !
Hope i'm able to go . hee !
alright . i'm done updating . loveyou jesus .

2008-10-30T08:21:00.001-07:00

Firstly , i want to apologise for all the things today .
I'm sorry .
i know i shouldn't forget about today caregroup .
i know i shouldn't feel reluctant to go for outreaching .
i did lied to you and ask someone to pick up the phone call .
sorry .
all this is really too much .
i know it has been tough to be a leader and lead a group of people .
i know that we should give you our fullest support but not talking behind and complaining .
i should know my mistakes and apologise . i should obey .
sighh .

father , i don't want to lose this sister of mine . i prayed that you will make her feel connected and she will not leave you .
i prayed that i can really make her feel much more stable in christ .
God help me and this sister of mine .
i don't want to lose 1 soul .
pray everything in your name . amen .

I WENT CLUBBING ! {:

2008-10-28T21:22:00.000-07:00

i'm back from malaysia {:
got school today de . even joyce called me 4 times , with my alarm , i didn't even hear a sound and vibration . plus mingyee sms me .
omgosh . i'm real tired lor .
have fun when i'm in malaysia . lots of fun with my cousins {:
in the midnight , play cards and hand game . super fun lor .
didn't really sleep well at genting .
brought some stuffs from there .
brought hoodie , earings , nail polish .
haha ! i use handphone bible to do quiet time . haha ! {:
okay . just want to post that i've lots of fun in malaysia .
bye friend {:
tag me when you are at my blog lah ! {:

2008-10-26T03:46:00.001-07:00

I'm off to malaysia . will be back on tuesday night .
miss me people ! {:
takecare !
Even i'm at malaysia , God's with me :D

2008-10-25T07:22:00.000-07:00

today went to service as normal .
didn't went good .
it is ESS , but guess what , all visitors have a reason why they didn't turn up .
amanda also didn't come as she went to the temple to pray for the uncle .
worship was good , was touch and have another conviction in service {:
after that went to le meridien to eat with tingting .
talk and crap alot . tingting is sick . take care uhs ! {:
after that take bus home . saw some westA ppl .
reach home awhile , tinghui message me tell me she at block635 .
which is near me . 5 blocks away only . haha .
and let me show you the conversation
tinghui : knock knock , pls open your house door.
jiahui : don't irritate me !
tinghui : no jokes , open up !

they really appear outside my house . i open the door wand went yewtee with them to buy dinner .
haha ! see , i so good open for you {:
tml will be going to work and monday too . don't want to work but i have to .
i don't want my parent to be angry at me .
so God help me to make time fly faster .
some kind souls can sms me to make my time fly faster .

sometimes i was wondering that whether the people in church is different from school friend ?
i also wonder that the friendship with God in the center , will it last ?
i really don know ? i want to know the answer .
there is many things i have been thinking .
sometimes , godly people is like no different with wordly people .
just that i get to see them more often .
i don't want to have this kind of thoughts .
God help me . bring the friendship with Godly people more closely .
sighhh ! ):
iloveyou father .

2008-10-24T03:54:00.000-07:00

went to school today for EM thingy .
was late asgain . 7am i woke up . haha
but today don have late coming de la . cause is already holiday .
holiday has started . i can have more time in ministry {:
serving God with my everything : D
the EM thing was super boring at the begining but after the lunch break , it is super fun .
the teacher in-charge of tourism , is our entertainer .
her voice , actions , joke la . hahah !
we are planning for 3 days trip for ''tourism''
testing for us la . is not real .
our planning is fun ok .
anyone need planning , come find me . haha . i will plan the the best !
after EM thing , headed to bp with mingyee to meet her fajar contact . haha .
i know her . i always go to school by 67 , at yewtee station will saw them waiting for each other .
pray that they are able to come tml for ESS ' freedom '
woah ! freedom is going on tmr at nexus auditorium .
tml will be the day that we will see more and more people coming to know you .
God , i really pray that hiukee won't overslept and i meet her at lot1 1045 , she won't be late .
God i also pray that sining is going to come tml .
God help me ! make impossible turn to possible .
God i pray that tml westB1 will going to hit out goal !
15 for you lord . God help us , soften our contact hearts lord ! {:
in jesus name , amen !

lastly , SINING ! your name is here ! happy anot ?
i know you read my post is all about God , but trust me everlasting love comes from God alone .
there's no one who is able to give us this everlasting love .
i'm able to let go of the past relationship is because of God 's amazing love .
i leave God once because of BGR , regretted alot about it .
really . go try and experience this wonderful love yourself , and you will never regret !

2008-10-23T06:25:00.000-07:00

actually wanna go to school today , but i overslept again . 7am then wake up .
so didn't went to school just went to take results at 10 plus .
promoted to sec4 , get position 5 in class , level , 16 . not realy satisfy with my result .
all border line . fail 2 , math and combined humanlities . i failed math again .
guess what , by 1 mark ):
i think is because last min revision .
really buck up next year and is N'level le .
i really want to promoto to sec5 and enter poly .
i don't want to disappoint my father .
my brothers enter ITE . And he has hope in me .
God help me . i really want to do well next year .
tomorrow have Em . yawnnn !
don't go for 1 time will have to pay more than 100bucks .
sat is freedom . ESS .
God make it a good one . Aes will be able to hit out goal , 15 .
Lord , i just commit all the umcomfirm visitors which is 10 unto your hand .
God pray that all uncomfirm will become comfirm .
God really hope that ESS will be the day that they will receive christ into their life .
use this time and those performance will attract them { :
in jesus name i prayed , amen ! :D
went to bp today to eat and went to library .
i'm going to finish reading '' how to experience revival ''
it is really a nice book {:
thank uh joyce . this sat hor . don forget my book . and i will not going to forget babylion :)

2008-10-22T05:09:00.000-07:00

went to meet up with gina and co . to talk about mcg .
as usual , gina overslept ! watch hotshot la . watch somemore ! tsk .
after that went to woodland to meet up with joyce as i'm going over to her house to stay over .
hmm . cause she is going to cook for me ! haha :x
went to her grandma's house first , was ask to eat dinner there . was a little full , and joyce take abit rice for me which i'm happy , then the grandma go take a bowl of rice and add for me and joyce . cute right ? haha ! but better then i'm stress over there . haha
after that went to woodland's fair price .
as usual in the trip always kanna disturb . but thank God this time round is better ! haha
then she ask me what i want to eat . guess what , i say anything , anything and anything .
then she say i like those princess at home so hard to serve .
no okay . i very good de . casual will do {:
went to her hse then awhile later gina called and conference to pray .
really pray hard that sat we will hit out goals 15 and mcg will have many visitors , which is tomorrow .
after that went to watch tv and bathe and read awhile biblical story books and off to sleep ! :D
early in the morning so early was called to wake up by joyce . guess what time is it . 7am
yawnnn ! didn't sleep well and i'm tired. cause i'm hot even the fan is off .
8am was asked to wake up again , and she say she cook first then call me wake up .
i thought she cook very long . but she really very fast lor .
eat and then watch kongfu panda . haha ! funny and panda is smart . i tell her like me .
haha !after that off to sleep again . i keep sleeping . you are a pig lor . ( joyce said this )
then i asked her don sleep end up i fall asleep lor . nearly fall to the floor . lol .
wake up bathe and go home . took train with her and then reach home online and went to bp to meet up with tinghui and tingyi . have dinner with them . kfc drink is tempting .
i have 3 and a half day . sat 5pm then i can drink le {:
i am so healthy recently {:

anyway , joyce if you read this , thanks for the early breakfast . i do appreciate it ok .
is nice {: you got talent . ask me to stay over soon ok ! i promise to go exercise with you and wake up early and don be a pig ! haha ! thanks for your biblical book . is nice {: didn't expect is so interesting . haha !

to those who know i once love him deeply , for your info , trust me i do give him up already {:
really thank God i have given up if not i will be crying to know that you are attach . haha .
so ya . i already give him up le . must be happy for me uh : D

2008-10-19T06:23:00.001-07:00

went to service ytd {:
is cool {: after that went to eat along with all the cg members .
have fun together with them .
after that took lots of photos with amanda , tingyi , tinghui and jingting {:
then go plaza sing walk walk then home sweet home {:
today went to see mingyee baptise {:
haha ! she like vip lor . so many ppl support her !
haha ! her new name {:
denyce tan mingyee !
she is a good friend of mine {:
really thank God for placing such a wonderful person in my life {:
although she always bully me but afterall , i still love her {:
mingyee thank you for being my friend {:
After that went to plaza sing with peiying , tingyi , tinghui , jingting and wenhui {:
my shoe torn halfway . wenhui accidentally step on it .
is okay {: then went to buy super glue {:
they very caring help me glue . peiying still want to change shoe with me {:
haha ! is okay de la {: i very powerful de {: lion ley ! {:
eat at foodcourt , saw joyce and co .
we borrow comb from wanting then something super funny happen .
want to know ? ask peiying ba !
haha ! then went home after that {:

i really don know what is wrong with me ):
feeling quite moody today .
i know that to you all disturbing me is like i don mind at all .
yah . sometimes is really ok .
3 of you are my goodfriends , really goodfriends .
then ? always say me . i know is like playing , but sometimes it really hurts me alot ):
when i want to say back , you all will have something to say me again .
say and laugh ? ):
sighh !

2008-10-14T06:51:00.000-07:00

Just did my quiet time :D
God give me the assurance that heaven and earth will fade away but his words will remain forever {:
i always feel love after chatting with God and reading his words {:
really pray hard that mcg will be a good one that everything will goes smoothly .

today went to panjang to meet up with contact.
she is quite responsive .
play catching with them {:
after that gina meet us to plan mcg thingy .
after that went to library borrow book {:
i haven't even read my previous book .
haha ! kinda interested to read books {:
influence by tinghui and tingyi ! haha
hope i will perservere to read until n'level to improve my english {:
after that headed back home to use msn ! {:
joyce promise me to see movie next week . lol!
ok . i'm mad . in 3 yrs i didn't even catch movie with her lor .
okay . tomorrow where am i going to go ?
got no where to go ):

2008-10-11T07:20:00.000-07:00

today went to service as normal .
go for fund-raising .
at first don dare to approach .
tingyi approach , so i also approached lor .
if not there won't be a single coin for hope center .
must play a part {:
after that went to service {:
praise and worship was awesome .
is really super awesome .
tear abit . super touch .
remember that whenever i'm alone , who is there for me ?
only you my father .
whenever i feel so alone , you're there for me .
you're the lover of my heart {:
father . thank you so much .
no words can express how much i love you .
i will learn to accept who she is , just like how you accept me of who am i .
i'm sorry for being so stubborn and attitude towards you .
i will learn to be humble and obey my leader just like how i want to obey God {:
gina . thank you for all the teachings that you taught me .
don worries , i won't be so childish to be angry of how you play with you .
but i want to thank you for making my day so wonderful . {:
thank God for you .
lets complete aes together .
remember that you are not alone .
i'll be there :D
went harverster meet today .
aes must grow .
really must grow .
15 by end oct {:
hiukee and angel should be coming for freedom {:
praise God .
God i commit the 2 of them into your hand .
father i just pray that they will be the 2 that impact aes .
turn aes upside down .
more and more ppl coming to know you .
pray that on freedom they will get touch by you and come and know you .
father i commit everything in your hand .
grow our spiritual life and use us greatly .
thank you father .
in jesus name , amen !

2008-10-10T06:18:00.000-07:00

photos edicted by celia {:
my dearest vulgar <3

today got caregroup !

so cool !
me and tinghui lead games and blessing .
hope that they enjoy ! haha
after that me and tinghui and jingting remain at bp .
we went library .
i borrowed a book {:
and busy checking something .
cannot share . haha !
after that went home with jingting .
tmr wake up at 7.45am .
tmr got y-hope donation .
kinda looking forward .{:
anyway . joyce happy belated birthday .
thank God for you .
you inspire me alot . by going extra miles for people .
you're someone that really love God and do love God by loving people .
thank you for teaching me math {:
although i don know i can pass anot , but i did my best already .
thank you for sharing the gospel to me {:
afterall , just wannt say thank god for you {:
hope you like that gift i gave you .
dalion thanks for being my friend for 3years .
anyway , thanks celia for the photo .
God has bless me greatly this week .
God i want to commit my eoy rresults in your hand .
i don't know whether i can pass anot , but i know everything is under your plan .
God i know that when i give my best , you will do everything for me {:
God thank you . i don know how to express my love for you .
But everlasting love comes from you .
thank you father {:
i thank you in advance {:
in jesus name i prayed , amen ! {:

how great is my God {:
he bless me and his greatest blessing is jesus's blood {:
thank you lord !

2008-10-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

father . i just commit my end of year examinations into your hand .
God i pray that you will help me and when i give my best , you will do the rest {:
God give me strength and wisdom for tmr exam ,
what i remember will be out on the exam sheet .
father . help me !
God increse my faith in you and help me to get closer with you each day of my walk with you .
i must believe in you that you can do many impossible things that man can't do .
God i pray for my brothers and sisters that you will help them in their exams .
or even people who are facing problems , God give them the strength to overcome and holy spirit guild them thru .
father i thank you in advance {:
amen !

hmmm . my prayer to God {:
i must believe in God , all things are possible with him .
entrust everything to him , cause everything is in God's control {:
shall not talk much .
go sleep and do my best tomorrow {:
God help me ! {:

2008-09-30T07:28:00.000-07:00

so long never update due to busy week . and is exam period .
God really bless me well this week :B
thank God .
i prayed and he answered my prayer .
How good is our God right ? {:
westb is going to complete fajar .
went to outreach on monday and tuesday
it's a fruitful days for me {:
we have a total of 3 converts on monday , 2 converts on tuesday .
if i'm not wrong for tuesday {:
let's pray hard for them to retain !
those who are maybe de , pray hard that they will still come on sat {:
praying hard that sat , fajar will be complete !
God bless us :D
tmr got shepherding with gina and all her sheep .
haha ! she keep bully me ! whack me , twist my hand . tsktsktsk .
But it brings laughter when i'm with her .
God pour down fruits on aes {:
more lower sec ppl coming to know you {:
we know that when the time is right , you will definitely bless us {:
perserverence {:
i want to do well for eoy !
i want to score well . i'm afraid .
But i must have faith in God .
As i do ministry thing , God will bless me definitely .
pray hard that God will give me wisdom and strength to study , memorising notes & do well in all subjects {:
my oral i got 30/40 for chinese .
okok lah . i want to do well for my chinese paper !
pray hard man {:
i must jiayou .
study hard to glorified God's name {:

2008-09-22T05:19:00.000-07:00

i feel so moody .
i don know why .
feel like crying every moment .
flash back memories , thinking of those happy times , sighh !
why why why ?
life with God is problematic .
life without God also so problematic .
so with God is always better .
at least i know everyone leave me but God is still there for me .
friends may not always be there . but i know God is with me .
only God i feel so secure .
with God i won't feel so isolated .
with God i feel loved .
with God there is joy in my heart .
God . i need you ):
i don know why i feel so moody .
everything seems so complicated now .
problems is happening now le .
But God you told me you have overcome the world .
what else i'm afraid of ?
But God just one prayer i want to pray to you .
i pray that everything is gonna to get over soon .
i want things to go well like the past .
God i pray that i won't feel so moody already .
i want to smile whenever i go .
i want my life to fill with joy .
cause you are the God who is joy .
God . i commit this prayer into your hand .
in jesus name , amen .

2008-09-21T05:57:00.000-07:00

1.The person who tagged you is ?
celia vulgar ! :B
2.your relationship with him or her is ?
crazy and vulgar {:
3.your five impression of him/her ?
noisy , full of vulgarities , zilian , emo , naughty girl .
4.the most memorable thing his/her has done for you ?
hmm ? last time always at canteen together {:
5. if he or she become your lover , will you?
can try ? haha!
6.if he/she become your lover , what things she must improve on ?
be who she is ? cause i will love someone orginal . not fake de ?
7. if him or she become your enemy , will you ?
idk ? i will be sad of course .
8.if he or she become your enemy , the reason will be ?
idk ? cause i never think of it ?

Don't want to do le . cause my type everything by my own .
even the question . sorry vulgar {:
today got ohana .
after all , still okay .
so siann too .
brought bagpack today with xiaoxuan .
mine look likes amanda mother deh .
don know how is she now ?
sorry mother .
i really want to know what happening ? ):

i want to work with jesus {:
my lord and saviour { :
iloveyou !
you mean everything to me ! {:
i want to walk with you for the rest of my life :B