I re-commit myself into this church on 16th August 2008 .
it has been 7months already .
Many things happen in this 7months.
There's joy , sorrow , anger , jealousy etc .
It's not a easy 7months for me .
Friendship between us , how much do i love god , etc.
I must change to someone who doesn't care if people don change. i myself must change will do .
You told me this , ya is true .
is time to grow . Really , it really takes many areas of life .
I wonder , do i really enjoy ? Or is something i have to ?
Well , i shall learn to look further .
Which is eternal life .
This will be the goal and i just run the race till the end .
Which many areas of life i need to grow in .
1st. love for the worthy people .
2nd. patient towards people .
3rd. being more understand .
Well , there is much more .
pastor shirley said that we will never stop growing . There is always something to know God more. It will not stop .
There is always something to learn and grow .
Even you are a very old believer , we still have to learn .
I admit , walk with God is really hard to me .
There is always 2 things to choose either God or go somewhere else.
Well , is really hard .
i know the answer is to go to place to meet God .
Well , why didn't tell me earlier ?
Why must always tell me last minute ?
If i know earlier , i will not meet anyone already .
Now , tell me what to do .
Rejecting people is what i hate the most .
Tell me earlier can ? ):
I really don't know what the hell am i doing recently .
I've been thinking much which i shouldn't .
God , bring me close to you again .
I'm willing to let you touch my heart .
You're so wonderful that how can i compare you with worthy stuffs ?
Worthy stuffs really doesn't worth anything .
It don't last . Why must i bother to consider at worthy stuffs in the past ?
If i were to grow strong and biblical in the past , i don't think the people around me will backslide . i will do my best to make them stand strong and not going together with them .
This is somethng why i didn't make it in the past .
Just not say about the past but the present .
I decided to remove certain people to come to my blog already .
cause from today i shall post more about godly stuffs .
I shouldn't be so emo already . I should start thinking .
What to do to make this school grow ?
I know it starts with our own personal growth .

God , i want to take this time to really pray for this school that was not growing for months.
people may come and go or even don feel like coming . God i really want to surrender my everything to you and make this school grow . I don't know how to say but God i really want to see this school filled with more people and i believe it helps being more united as well . God , i will learn to accept people and really don't want myself to affect the growth of this school . God i will still believe that you can make miracles to happen . If you can do miracles in the bible , i believe even now you still can cause God you never change at all . I commit everything into your hand that i will have faith and believe if i walk right with you , you will pour in fruits into this land . Amen.