feeling so confusing now :/
i don want to be so emotional lor .
but why am i always feeling so emotional ?
what is the problem with me man ? :/sigh!
i think i really fall super super deep in love with you lor .
i think it isn't a good sign ? thats why im sufferring like fcuk ?
i regretted alot . seriously . i really agree what my bitch say .
''want to hurt me ? hurt me quickly please ?''
im sick and tired already . times that shows me you'll back .
times that you make me break down for you for times .
im not superwoman. im the girl that couldn't be strong in this kind of situation . do you understand it ?
why must always girls who is the one who is hurt ?
guys ? why do you guys want to hurt girls ?
please. im sick and tired already . seeing ppl around me hurt by guys ?
yah . there are girls who hurt guys . but you people tell me ?
if you guys are hurt, then girls are double , triple more hurt then you all !
you'll never know how hurt we are .
cause we are the one who always suffering.
i totally don know what to say already .
i feel so lost . that how i wish one day i have the ability to forget you .
but i know i couldn't . this is for sure .
im sorry friends. i really cannot take it anymore :/

today went to school as normal .
get back my physic, math results .
physic i pass ley! miracles ? i think my hardwork is not wasted .
but then hor , i just pass only 25/50 .
haha! i never get single digit is already a miracle . haha!
feel so happy . but my math hor ?!
sigh! i no comment uh .
should i feel happy that im the 5 of them in my class pass paper 1 ?
somemore al foreigner only me ?
should i be happy ?
34/60 paper 1
is lousy i know . i don wan this type of result de lor .
paper 2 more worst . i failed ! sigh! sigh ! sigh!
15/40!
means 1 more marks , im going to pass the 2 papers .
but overall pull my result down! hais !
become 46/100
this result makes me got nothing to say .
i want to pass math . but i think i haven put in more effort .
i shouldn't give up . i should continue to buck up and do super well for end of year !
chemistry : 36/50
phyic : 25/50
total : 61/100
haha! happy ! {:
then after school look for natalie {:
qingaideh . cheerup yah ?
im always there for you {:
iloveyou girl {:
i hope i can pass history , SS and chinese lor ! ):

lastly i got something to tell you boy.
can you tell me what you really feel ? :/
i just want to read your mind . i don know what you are thinking .
you're weird . really
why i love you so much ? yet you don seems to feel it at all ?
i don know how many times i have been breaking down for you .
i think the tears i cried is just too much already .
izzit that you are telling me to give up and move on ?
tell me boy ? can you ?
but no matter what i know i stil love you alot .
im really confused . i don know what to do .
goodbye boy . loveyou my dearest precious donovantan {: